smile!

i am sure..

2012-01-07T00:54:00.000+08:00

pretty sure that the feeling is gone ;p

I don't know why....

2011-12-22T01:12:00.005+08:00

I feel so so so so neglected these days.

I feel that I am not good enough as a person.

I feel that nobody would cry for me if I'm gone missing.

I feel that everything I do is never good enough.

I feel that when I try to do good things, ends up bad.

I try not to do things that I've been wanting to do just to.. please (?) but I still get the treatment like I've done worst things ever.

"Please", maybe that's the problem.

I've been living to please people.

I, then, begin to doubt myself.

I, have no vision.

I, have no dream.

I am useless.

Which is so painful to think about.

Being useless and in possession of nothing special.

The worst is I feel like i'm just an option.

An option to fill in places.

I know I sound so dramatic. I sound so pathetic. I sound stupid.

These are just my feelings at the moment.

These are my weaknesses.

I tend to think too much.

Way too much.

In life, you won't be remembered for all the good things you have done,

but only for the mistakes you have made.

#LargerThanWords

Tell me that I am wrong. These thoughts are just wrong.

Thoughts and more thoughts...

2011-12-22T00:46:00.000+08:00

Far far, there's this little girl
she was praying for something to happen to her
everyday she writes words and more words
just to spit out the thoughts that keep floating inside
and she's strong when the dreams come cos' they
take her, cover her, they are all over
the reality looks far now, but don't go

Far Far - Yael Naim

Sigh

2011-12-21T23:14:00.002+08:00

I need time of my own. Do things i want...

WHATEVER!

Trip to KK

2011-12-21T23:11:00.000+08:00

December!

2011-12-15T02:51:00.005+08:00

These maps had saved us!

Yes, it's December already~
Monday, family just got back from KK. Five days Four nights trip. Back at homeland with fever. Didn't really enjoy shopping due to headaches, cough and stuffy nose. I guess I was dehydrated. Haha.

Well, I still remember the last time we went to KK was back in 2006. Exactly masa Tsunami! 26th December 2006 if im not mistaken.
And as for this year, 2011.. We got to watch lunar eclipse! I know even in Brunei pun buleh nampak but yeah.. My point is.. KK, phenomena, related. Haha. Just saying~

Triple....

2011-10-02T00:20:00.003+08:00

It's the triple E gangs. Somehow I miss having them around UBD. Haishh.

Belajar! - Kata Datin. Hahaha

cari masalah

2011-09-30T03:40:00.001+08:00

I know that I need to wake up early but then I feel reluctant to shut my eyes. Haysssh -_-"

2011-09-24T14:30:00.002+08:00

squash with scorching hot weather. Macam nyaman kalau tidur sambil di tiup angin sapui2 bahasa. Haha

keychains

2011-09-23T01:59:00.000+08:00

After few days of keychain-holder's hunt, finally got the one ive been looking for. Its gonna be my keychain collection =D

Just Let It Go

2011-09-20T16:03:00.000+08:00

never could imagine life without
from the moment you walked into my world
but losing you has forced me to learn
that we cant change the way we feel inside
maybe if we met each other under a different sky

maybe then things would be much better between you and i

we both know its better if we just let it go...

Life

2011-09-20T00:42:00.000+08:00

This month has been quite sweet and harsh to me. Sweet like receiving unexpected items. Being allowed to go raya with my girls. Alhamdulillah. I'm so grateful for those granted permissions. I know i should use my parents' trust wisely. I hope i dont lose it someday. Amiiin.

Then, I have learned about how real heartache feels like. High level of jealousy. Disappointment. Knowing when to give up. Sigh. So much to bear. But Insya Allah. Will face them with faith and redha akan segala dugaan.

I believe HE has something better for me.

It's Ramadhan... :)

2011-08-13T02:24:00.002+08:00

Ramadhan day 12. It's not been a good year for our family. We just lost grandma sometime in June. The only person that we can call 'grandma' passed away. Not seeing her in just a week and found out that she has gone the week after dumbstruck me that left me feeling-less, clueless.... It was kind of hard to accept. As well as to believe. However, seeing her in that condition was really painful and heartbreaking....

ALLAH knows better and love her more.. Got to see her for the last time made me feel no regret.. Alhamdulillah, thanks to ALLAH for the opportunity.

Anyway, I missed blogging. But I could not find a right time to do it. The time where I am alone and inspired. Not until this moment. I miss talking to myself. I miss talking in my own way. I miss expressing myself..

The latest about me, I rebel much nowadays. I easily lose my temper. I don't talk much. I keep thinking and filling myself with worries, fears.. Be it with assignments, the next teaching practice, people acceptance... lots of thing..

Maybe it is nearly the 'time of the month' that I feel this way? Could be.. I have felt this way before so it is possible. Anyway, it has been a long time I wanted to post up these pictures. So here they are, pictures of us during AGM 2011:

Sambil menyalam, sambil minum aing. Masa atu kami busy with assignments.

Listening to the meeting while drafting essays.

syuuuuuuuu~~ (bunyi angin)

2011-06-21T19:59:00.000+08:00

suuuunyi blog ku. busy like what aku masa ani. i want my vacation. sheessh. can't wait. approximately 16 more days to end this torture.
Oh btw, I MISSS MAMA so BAAAAD~ huuuuu. Aku mau ikutttt

Another Revision Week!

2011-04-25T22:37:00.002+08:00

Its the first day of revision week and yet, I am still left with one assignment. Supposedly today I have done everything and moved on to revision but ada tia jua last minute amendment to do. Sigh. How to feel exam mood if like this?.. I havent touched anything. Ya Allah! The thought of having a week before exam, with nil revision is soooooo scary and worrying T_T

Anyhooo.. I must be strong and work smart in this situation. Insya Allah!

All I hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop

Oh baby, tell me why’d you have to go

‘Cause this pain I feel it won’t go away

And today I’m officially missin’ you

Workload

2011-03-23T02:21:00.000+08:00

So many things need to be done by the end of this semester and i really feels like i am way behind schedule. Sasak ku eh that I am still not ahead *frown face*

I learned something today

2011-03-19T19:38:00.000+08:00

New stuff at Uni

2011-03-15T20:06:00.009+08:00

Dear Pehin,

now I got the time to update about our uni today.

I apologise IF aku buat kamu tesliur. Sia-siapun saja. Nanti kamu vacation, sila-sila tah singgah di UBD makan. Hang out with us. HAHAHA.

Mas Supreme just opened another branches at UBD. Varieties of foods available. Segala macam ruti ada~

Ada nasi campur. Not bad~

Another vendor, UR-GOT. Something new. Haven't tried buying anything here. Heheh

Ice Cream toppings !

Pick yours!

The Ice Cream

Yum2~

Random

Cakoi kawin. Rutinya needs....improvement xD

Kolo Mee Ayam

Roasted Chicken Rice

Menu of the day

update...

2011-03-13T01:58:00.001+08:00

Ive got few stories to share with our dearest friends out there, especially for Pehin AY. LOL.

Nanti ku update aaaaa~ hope u guys are doing well di sana ;p

Mid-Semester break Sem II / 2011

2011-03-01T15:18:00.003+08:00

This year, this semester, we have no break at all. No time to chill. All we've got to do is work work work. Take today as an example. Like our normal days at uni. Membuat keraja. Muka sorang2 macam kana tampar. hahahahha. Pasal assignments menimbun. Good things actually. Makes me to think and at the same time to improve my english yang selama ani makin betagar. LOL.

However, at the same time.. I have to sacrifice my time being at home. Its like most of my time are spent at uni.

I just hope that I can cope with the workloads. Not to left behind. Stay on schedule. Insya Allah =)

xP

2011-02-22T14:54:00.001+08:00

waaaaaahhh.. aku stressss~ tapiii inda. stress lah jua. inda. aku sangal saja. aku ngalih. aku exhausted. hahaha. randomm~

Red Thursday

2011-02-17T11:15:00.002+08:00

This is crazyyy~
I have debate this saturday and im still struggling with the topics. Apa inda, i just started today so it is simply my fault. hahaha. inda cali tu buii. Ganya payah bah.. Kan membuat di umah, internet "bebahagi lima"..
Anyway, the topic is gonna be on the advantage of indirect instruction. Cigu stuffs.
Hmmmmm.. debate. aku tidak percaya aku ikut. aku telah tersilap langkah. mungkinkah?? hahaha.

To my friends yang di GLASGOW.. Aku TERliat album tani. It makes me teringat kan masa2 lalu kitani di UBD. WAHAHAHAHAH.
Kami rindu kamuuu~

Advert-in-between-study

2011-02-08T14:18:00.008+08:00

At the cafe. Trying to finish the Lesson Plan. Being a student-teacher is not easy. Totally no background on teaching. No one to guide.

Blergh!

Brain ku tired.

Don't blame me for the crazy act-ups.

wanna see this? ==> go to video

confuse

2011-02-07T23:49:00.001+08:00

im confuse, yes.
when i talk, no one wants to listen. i feel like all ive said were just craps and rubbish?
so better be silent but then.. like all of sudden you need my opinions?

thats one thing. another thing is, you want me to understand but have you ever think of understanding me or at least my situation? aku pun stress. things are bit rough lately. im tired. depressed. im called 'human'. i have ups and downs.
i guess i'll go through this week without smiles. who knows?

Its just a dream =)

2011-02-02T21:41:00.002+08:00

I should be happy today but i'm feeling the other way round. Why?
I should be feeling better after a confession but i couldn't feel it. Why?
When I wanted to move on, there will always be obstacles strongly clinging on me. Why?

Oh yes. This is life. Definitely. It isn't life if we encounter no problems at all. It is so true girls =)

I must be strong. I must go forward. Things will fall into place eventually. Insya ALLAH.

Hwaiting!! ROFL~

Im gonna do it!

2011-02-01T02:04:00.001+08:00

unproductive

2011-01-29T21:51:00.001+08:00

Desk: check! Chair: check! Stationeries: ready! Books: got it! Ideas: ideas? Not here yet!!

Blank blank blank. Presentation in less than 72 hours. Not even one slide is filled with points.

dislike mad people

2011-01-24T00:42:00.005+08:00

I had my study mood on for just few minutes before someone ruined it. urgh, makin stress eh. there's a lot of presentions need to be done and prepared. unlike when we're still under that science faculty where we're needed to focus and keep on practising only. I pray for a better week. Insya Allah..

dislike mad people

2011-01-24T00:42:00.003+08:00

dislike mad people

2011-01-24T00:42:00.001+08:00

END

2011-01-16T23:58:00.002+08:00

The end of week 1.
I have forgotten some of things that i should do for next week lectures.
Need to have new learning strategies this semester.
How should i do it?

in dilemma

2011-01-14T22:10:00.003+08:00

Stuck infront of the TV, on my lil sister's bed, thinking what to wear for lectures tomorrow. Should i dress casually? Ayu in baju kurung? Atau simply beselipar jipun? Hahaha. Sekali datang panat ku ni. Iatah namanya rambang mata kali ni? Tapi inda jua sesuai bunyinya to be applied in this case ah.

I still can hear the sound of rain pouring sadang heavy outside. Alhamdulillah. Im sure tomorrow morning will be a nice day, Insya Allah.

| Alhamdulillah.. |

2011-01-14T01:41:00.001+08:00

First few days of this semester have gone well. I tried to be in my best attitude and alhamdulillah, it was a success.
Keep reminding myself untuk meluruskan niat before leaving the house. Hopefully aku inda lupa.. Amiiin.

January 10th, 2011

2011-01-10T17:12:00.003+08:00

Uni resumed. Im as early as the bird. New resolution you may say. Haha. It's just the first day though. I pray that my weeks are going to be fine and will be running smoothly, Insya Allah.

So glad to see the babies today. It feels a lot better after not seeing each other for nearly a month. Apa kata phrase atu - "Distance makes heart grow fonder" Aku agree. Hehe

So cetanya tadi, quite unxpected things to do. I never imagined that my week would kick-off that way. Was given a chance to visit the 'filming' world..... hmmmmm

Another thing to share, I've been spending hours with the guitar. Trying to improve on my strumming. Gosshh.. Im so terrible. Nyaman lagi mendangar urang bemain. haha. of course lah kan.. I still couldnt get how to do it. The chords? Okay. Not a probs. Need to polish saja lagi.. Haiyaaa.. i guess I'll take some time to master the "art of guitar". LOL

Awk rapat-rapat dgn sy..syg awk!

2011-01-10T16:11:00.001+08:00

by Nursyuhada Fatihah Zaimar on Wednesday, January 5, 2011 at 7:49pm

Di suatu malam depan panggung wayang…

Sizuka : Best tengok wayang dgn awk td..kelakar je cerita tu..xbosan kan?

Nobita : A’ ah xbosan. Best!

Sizuka : Kalau best, knp awk letakkan kepala awk kat bahu sy & beritahu sy y awk mengantuk?

Nobita : Errr~ hehe..

Sizuka : Nasib baik kita pakai sweater kn awk? Kalau x, mesti sejuk dalam tu td.

Nobita : A’ah..btul3! Xdela sejuk sgt td bila dah pakai sweater ni.

Sizuka : Klu xsejuk, kenapa awk pegang tangan sy & beritahu y awk sejuk?

Nobita : Errr~ hehe..

Mereka pun menuju ke i-City..

Sizuka : Awk, sy cantik x?

Nobita : Awk kn syg sy..mestilah cantik..

Sizuka : Kalau sy ni betul cantik bagi awk, kenapa bila sy pakai baju-baju tertentu baru awak akan puji sy cantik. Kalau sy pakai baju longgar, awk diam je..kadang-kadang awk akan tanya saya kenapa pakai baju besar..kalau sy pakai baju ketat, baru awk puji sy cantik..knp ye?

Nobita : Errr~ hehe..

Mereka pun tiba di i-City..

Sizuka : Jom snap pic wak..sy nak tangkap gambar awk bawah lampu tu.

Nobita : Kita tangkap gambar berdua la syg. Meh sini, duduk sebelah sy. Rapat sikit, nanti xmasuk plak gambar awk.

Sizuka : Boleh ke rapat-rapat ni?huu

Nobita : Takpe de..awk kn awek sy..

Sizuka : Awek je..bukan isteri yg sah..

Nobita : Errr~ huhu..

Sizuka : Nanti sy simpan gambar kita ni dalam laptop sy ye wak.

Nobita : Alaa..upload la terus dalam fb.

Sizuka : Eh..boleh ke..xelok la wak..gambar tu dah la awk & sy je..yang ke-3 syaitan..pastu nak pergi heboh 1 dunia tentang dosa y kita buat..xmalu ke?huu

Nobita : Errr~ huhu..

Mereka pun pulang..

Sizuka : “Awk, awk syg sy x?

Nobita : Mestilah syg..syg sangat2 tau..haa

Sizuka : Buktinya??

Nobita : Eh..mcm ajak bergurau je..nak sy kiss pipi awk tu ke syg?hehe

Sizuka : Ish..apa ni? Teruknya pemikiran awk..huu

Nobita : Eh..errr~ huhu

Sizuka : Mak sy kata, kalau kita syg sesuatu tu, kita akan jaga sebaik mungkin.

Nobita : Eh..mestila! hehe

Sizuka : Tapi awk tipu sy!huu~

Nobita : Eh..kenapa plak sy tipu awk??

Sizuka : Kalau awk syg sy, mestilah awk jaga sy sebaik mungkin tp awk xjaga sy dgn baik pun..awk sentuh-sentuh sy, pegang tangan sy, cuba nk kiss sy,ajar sy buat benda bukan-bukan yg sy xpernah buat sebelum ni, selalu ajak sy keluar malam-malam.

Nobita : Owh..sekarang awk nak salahkan sy la ajak awk keluar malam?? Mak ayah awk yg bg izin tau!

Sizuka : Memang diorang y bagi izin tapi awk tau x y diorang jugak y akan tanggung dosa sy dgn awk malam-malam macam ni sbb diorang bg izin pada sy ank perempuan diorang utk keluar dgn lelaki bukan mahram tanpa adik atau abang sy sebagai peneman pastu buat benda-benda xsenonoh! Pegang sana pegang sini..awk tau x panggung wayang tu mungkin sejuk bagi awk sampai terpegang tangan sy dgn sengaja, tp neraka tu teramat panas & tangan awk y memegang tangan sy tu akan dibakar dalam api neraka berulang kali..awk sedar x semua tu?? Tangkap gambar nak kepit-kepit, padahal boleh je tangkap gambar sorang-sorang kan..then, nak heboh kat 1 dunia. Pastu nanti org ‘like’ awk pun suka sebab orang tau siapa awek awk & hubungan awk dan sy kononnya bahagia tapi awk sedar x yang malaikat sentiasa mencatat segala apa yg kita buat..awk ada ilmu agama..klu xde ilmu agama pun, awk tau benda tu salah..tp kenapa masih buat? Awk sedar x semua tu??? Ingat Allah tak waktu awk buat semua tu?? Awk tu belum tentu jodoh sy, nak sentuh-sentuh sy. Kalau da awk nak sentuh-sentuh sy, apa je y suami sy boleh dapat special dari sy sbg isterinya y sah? Awk nak ke isteri awk dah macam sisa orang? Awk mesti akan cakap awk akan pastikan y awk akan nikah dgn sy sebab tu awk boleh sentuh-sentuh sy..tp awk sedar x y awk tu siapa?? hanya hamba Allah...awk bukan tuhan utk tahu siapa jodoh sy & jodoh awk..awk sedar x semua tu??? Klu betul awk syg sy, awk jaga lah sy baik-baik, beri sokongan sy jd muslimah solehah…dekatkan diri pada Allah, mohon pada Allah supaya izinkan kita dijodohkan bersama kerana sy ni milik Allah..ibu bapa hanya penjaga sy, mereka menjaga sy dgn penuh kasih sayang & didikan y baik sehingga sanggup memberi kepercayaan pada awk utk menjaga sy, tp awk jaga sy x??awk jaga sy x?? x kan..awk bawa sy kea rah keburukan..awk sedar x semua tu??? Banyak lagi y awk buat kat sy, sy pun terlalu kurang pandai ikutkan je kemahuan awk..nanti kat neraka bila Allah soal sy dgn dosa-dosa maksiat y kita buat, bukannya awk dapat backup sy dpn Allah..kn?? Tolonglah tahan diri tu sehingga kita dah sah dinikahkan..huuu~

Suasana bertukar menjadi suram...sehinggalah nobita mula meluah perasaan...

Nobita : Kenapa x dari dulu awk cakap semua benda ni?? Kenapa bila kita dah lalui macam-macam baru awk nak luahkan semua ni???

Sizuka : Sebab sebelum awk nak couple sgn sy, awk janji yang awk akan jaga sy baik-baik. Awk suka dengan saya pun sebab bagi awk sy baik tapi semakin lama awak makin berubah. Perubahan awk turut merubah diri sy. Baru sekarang sy luah semua benda ni sebab selama ni sy sentiasa menanti agar Nobita y dulu kembali. Nobita y menjaga sy dgn baik. Sy tunggu Nobita tu..tunggu & terus menunggu kerana sy sayangkan dia. Tapi semakin lama sy tunggu, semakin menjadi-jadi...awk fikirlah baik-baik apa y sy sampaikan...kalau awk masih xberubah, lepaskan sy kerana Allah..

Nobita : ......

[Pesanan : kepada pasangan yg hangat menyulam cinta & kasih sayang, jagalah batas anda! Ingat larangan Allah…cinta itu indah krn Allah yg menciptakannya tapi jangan sampai cinta utk Allah itu dinodai oleh cinta manusia..menjadi kebiasaan, dalam berkasih ada kesalahan y akan dilakukan..seringlah muhasabah diri & beranikan diri untuk mula buat perubahan..beranikan diri menegur pasangan sebelum Allah menegur dengan pembalasan & azab..wallahu’alam~]

peringatan utk semua, beribu kali peringatan utk diri y teramat hina ini~

Merantau

2011-01-04T00:14:00.008+08:00

Berada di bawah satu langit,
berpijak di tanah yang berlainan.
Bernafas pada udara yang sama
tetapi hakikatnya berbeza.
Bumi yang luas,
anugerah Maha Esa.
Ingin ku berada di suatu tempat,
bukan di sini.
Ingin ku melihat dunia,
dari sudut pandangan yang berbeza.

Honestly.. Ive never been to the other parts of the world other than the places not far from my country. The farthest Ive been to was KK ^^

Soo.. 2010 was where i saw some friends returned and left this country, be it to further studies or simply vacation. And, 2010 had hits the "highest" number in my record.
This "record" somehow makes me want to go as well. I want to go to the place where i can see, touch and feel snows. Cold places where i can see the air i breathe out.
Looking through their pictures always makes me think how would it feel to be at an unknown, new places. Maybe I could get to see different pictures of life. I don't know for sure. These are just assumptions from me, who still got lots to learn.
Things may not be the same as Ive had imagine though. I know that fact =)

So, i'll just pray and work hard so that i could travel around the world. With family would be purrrfect!

k.e.d.a.t.a.n.g.a.n

2011-01-03T19:45:00.002+08:00

Kami menanti kedatangan keluarga pa usu tertayang dari limbang.
Dang amoi bemasak di dapur.
Aku membuat kapal keratas untuk c iwan. Asteeeee

tumblr

2011-01-03T18:20:00.002+08:00

I got myself a tumblr account! Just signed up but im still not sure how it works.
Working on it! haha

-_-)'

2011-01-03T17:48:00.000+08:00

sleepy but i dont want to sleep.

you

2010-12-27T04:22:00.002+08:00

I am having difficulties.

FamiLy mass gathering

2010-12-26T03:54:00.001+08:00

25th December, urang menyambut krismas, kami membuat acara Doa Selamat dan BBQ. Supposedly on Sunday then carried forward tia kepada Saturday. Anyway, more stories and pictures are available on big sis' blog.

Ini adalah cara paling mudah untuk membuat post. hahaha. lazzzzy

M.U.S.I.C

2010-12-13T02:04:00.004+08:00

Been wanting to be good at musical instruments but that one of many dreams has not been achieved yet =/
I envy those who could play piano and guitar.......

So far away from the past but still....

2010-12-07T20:39:00.002+08:00

I'm still the same i think. Only a few changes. Why is that? I wonder what went wrong and what is wrong with me. Is it normal to have so few changes within a long period of time? Am i rushing things out? Or i am changing, it's just i don't feel it? Is that even possible? Wait! I think it's them. They are changing. My surrounding, people around me, changing so fast, that makes me unaware of my own changes? Haha. Whatever.

So I'm having a match tomorrow. My 3rd participation in the squash tournament, if i'm not mistaken. Yet, i still have butterflies. Never they are gonna leave me and my stomach alone. LOL!

I'm going to play for fun, yes, i am going to play for fun. I don't want to expect anything, just play for fun.

I wish all participants to have a good time and all the best.

Exam week

2010-11-23T22:33:00.004+08:00

Third day of exam, second day tekana exam malam. Ngaleeeeeh tu nyanta. 3 days in a row. Singkat penyawahan. huahuahua. Can't wait for it to end sooon but surely gonna miss this. hehe. Next year there'll be no more 3 months vacation ='(

UBD now

2010-10-06T14:24:00.014+08:00

This update is just for Pehin and friends yang berada nun jauh di sana UBD have new stalls!! Infact, we have 3 =D Restoran Sri Mamak, Dimsum Nyonya (i think) and the recently opened stalls, inda tau namanya. Let the pictures do the talking la... Inda payah ku bejabir explain xP

Raya raya raya. everywhere in UBD

Cafe yang dulunya sunyi

Nona manisss 1

One of the new restaurants

usin pacah Brunei

Menu

Nona Manis 2

Dimsum from Nyonya Restaurant, I heard.

Recently opened restaurant serves this instant mee. Indomee pun ada!

Ni urang yang entertained kami last time. LOL

Again, the Dimsum restaurant. Ada buffet jua

Adik2 manis yang tengah kelaparan

Menanti order datang

Maniths!

Pun Manithss. haha *background: HEP new building design*

Background ani still exists. Modelnya ani pun still ada. ahaha

Our teh tarik and hot chocolate

Kuey Teow Goreng Ayam with chillisss

Ini nasi lemak ayam. Berisi jua parut ulihnya.

New construction in progress. New HEP

UBD Open house invitation

SOAS Memorial Lecture invitation card

Ada keychains, baju and stuffs

People dropping by

Challenge Me Season 2. Aku inda attend this year, pehin A nada. LOL

As usual, gerai-geraian. Liat tungking, aku ingat si pijah. LOL

Ahad's Burger pun ada

Thats ALL for the time being. Any updates regarding UBD, aku update. *Terasa macam UBD promoter pulang. hahahahaha*

2010-09-21T23:27:00.005+08:00

Monday, 20th September 2010
2.14am

I wrote: I am still having an adrenaline rush from the JUMP performance. It was super-cool and hilarious. I laughed hard. At the end of the show, rashee and I met zyda at the lobby of the Grand Hall. We decided to stay a while and look for the JUMP players to take pictures. From there, we stick around, the three of us. Overjoyed by the opportunity to meet them, I forgot everything. I keep on forgetting to acknowledge the rest on where I went. I know all blames are on me for being self-centered just now. I deserved it. But it doesn’t matter. I just want a little self-indulgence. All these while, I felt like I have put others in front, always neglecting my wants. Once a while, I also want something good for myself, though I did it in a wrong way. Lol! It’s a habit. Guess I have to change that since no one like it. Pity me. Have to change for others when others don’t have to. So sad. Anyway, thanks to the family and I apologize for acting like a child when all of you were worried about me. In this situation, I admit that I su*k. BIG time!

Thoughts: I’m always wrong to you. What’s good for me is never good for you. But what’s good for you is always good for me. You want me to do it your way. Everything is your way. My life is your life. How should I live my life is your call. I do good deeds, you don’t remember. I do badly, you never forget. You could treat others very well but I could not treat them as close friends’ rather just friends. I see it as unfair but to you it is very fair. You are not the main player in my life. You are just part of it. Not asking you to leave but just step back a bit so that I can breathe my own air. Please, don’t get me wrong. This is how I feel. Probably those were not your intentions but that’s what I felt. I’m just spilling the bean. Peace!

Question

2010-08-29T06:23:00.004+08:00

Guys with perfect smiles, do they exist?

Saturday morning study~

2010-08-28T08:15:00.001+08:00

After sahur, I couldn't get back to sleep. I should blame teh tarik for this. *i still love it though* Hahaha.

Today, for the first time in this semester, I'm going to UBD for group study during public holiday=D
I don't know how will it goes since I'm doing it with the new crowds. So, we'll see.
Just wish it ends well ^^) Insya ALLAH!

Freaky Tuesday!

2010-08-25T00:50:00.008+08:00

I couldnt get back to sleep after sahur so i stayed up and did some readings. As usual, in uni i had to attend lectures and tutorials. It all went well.

During this particular lecture, I get to see my eye candy. He got new look. Looks so nice!! Never fails to make me melt. LOL.

Tuesday's lectures ended as usual, at 4pm. Waited for sister to fetch my. I felt soooooooo sleeeeeepy that I could bang my head on the desk while copying notes from the board. Then in the car, I chose to close my eyes and tried to sleep but to no avail. Reaching our kampung area, i.e. Tungku, sister said something that made me open my eyes. To my surprise, there was an accident involving 3 cars at the traffic light. Seems like it just happened about minutes ago since I saw smoke coming out from the engine and the passengers were just about to step out of the car, looking rather dizzy. The traffic light's poll, *is that what you call them?* was not at where it is suppose to be. As usual, the traffic began to increase. Some rubbernecked and some just drove away from the crowd. Including us.

At 5pm, left home for Majlis Doa Arwah at Sungai Tampoi.
Again, another shocking scene to see. Not far from our housing area, its only like about few kilometers away, we saw a big fire truck, followed by smokes coming out from a house! Astaghfirullah. A house was on fire. Not literally on fire. I think it came out from one of the room on the second floor. Luckily it wasnt totally on fire. Nauzubillah. Its like 2 weeks left for Raya.. Kesian jua tu..

So, thats all Ive got to say. See you next time~

have faith in you

2010-08-24T00:40:00.006+08:00

Patience brings good stuff.

For the past few weeks, I've been trying to hold myself from being carried away with my wants, my emotions, frustrations, disappointments and whatever. It was hard at first but then it goes slightly well. Alhamdulillah. Berkat bulan puasa ani jua. I've found peace for the moment. The one that i never felt before.

Probably pasal i am now able to let certain things go. All these while, i am reluctant to admit that something is no longer mine but i am releasing it slowly.. Time also has shown that it can heals a broken heart, heals the pain that was made long time ago. All I've got to do is be patient. I rants and raves *;p*, hold grudges, fought with myself but I realized that it was tiring and eventually it made me stop and think, "How long should i act like this? *sigh*"
I'm 22 with the remaining 2 years of study. I should start to focus on my studies, get busy and enjoy the uni life. I need to buck up and never waste my time with unhappy things. I have to let go. I will let go. I'll just go with the flow, for real. Not just simply talk! Insya Allah, kepada-Nya aku belindung dari segala penyakit hati.

It has come!

2010-08-11T21:49:00.001+08:00

update terbengkalai again! LOL

My first "Kem Motivasi"

2010-07-06T20:29:00.013+08:00

Not long time ago *macam batah saja kan bunyinya*,
The place where I teach tuition was having "Kem Motivasi" where students of year 8 and o-levels were required to camp out in the school compound for two days, one night.
I came as a volunteer, to help the AJKs looking after the kids.
Highlighting some of the activities.

On
Day 1: Registration, making the group flags and the blindfold game.
Day 2: Assertif Diri and performances for the closing ceremony

Taking group pictures with their supervisor and flag

Cigu Iswandy handling the Assertif Diri program

This program teaches us many things

To have fun

At the same time, Kesedaran diri

Preparing them for the closing ceremony

Watching their friends performing on the stage

Their "camps"

Group photos

Time to go...

The "Orang Kuat" >.<

Pictures taken by d24

New header for the blog~

2010-07-06T19:59:00.003+08:00

Ive been MIA for how long ah?.. hehe. My kemalasan came and pay me a visit. Plus, the inaccessibility to the blog dragged my mood away from blogging.
Anyway, I have a LOT of pictures to upload =s

sampaikan i dont know where to start.

The fourth accident in this year

2010-06-22T02:07:00.007+08:00

Sedih ku eh. When it happened to our closest one, then baru kitani tau cemana rasanya.
Around half past 8pm, baru saja siap dinner, cousin Nanie received a message, quite mengajutkan lah.. mcm, tarus membagi melabuk jantung. It was pasal cousin adi. Something happened to them right after ia left our house. Ya Allah. Macam2 banar yang bemain lam kepala ah. Ada2 saja di pikiran. Keadaan macam biasa lah kalau udah beramai2 ani. riuh randah beforehand. Right after reading that message, semua tebranti. Nyuci pinggan pun was put on hold.

After few phone calls made by mama, it was confirmed, the two brothers had an accident. Ya Allah. It was one of the scariest moment ever. Nuhun semangat mendangar. Before ia balik atu, siuk meliat dorang main gitar nyanyi2.. Sekali dpt message only about 2 hours after dorang accident.

We rushed to Lambak, syukur alhamdulillah, nda kana tahan di spital. Sampat kami singgah the scene. Rawan ati meliat keritanya atu. Inda g kan tegarak dari sana. Sebak sedih, semua ada. Allahuakbar, Allah Maha Besar, masih kana panjangkan umur dorang. Syukur Alhamdulillah nada papa yg serious..

Di rumah, nyaman sikit ati meliat the lil brother bekipak rah the mother. Kesian.. He's too young for this but for sure, jadi kenangan and pengajaran rahnya..
Cari the big bro. There he was, like a baby, melimpang di kerusi. Still in his baju tadi siang. Trauma ya.. I know ia rasa guilty. But blaming anyone won't help. It happened.

We could not hold back our tears meliat ia becerita. Ia pun nda dapat menahan tangisnya.. Obvious that he was still in shock.

Syukur alhamdulillah, dorang dua inda badly injured. Allahuakbar, Allah Maha Besar!

You are my fairytale

2010-06-19T03:25:00.001+08:00

Havent seen you for quite some time..

Behind the scenes punya storiess untuk 22th May surprised.

2010-05-24T22:46:00.018+08:00

To begin with, let me express my gratitude to:

- Family 4261, especially mama and babah for being sooo sporting in both events.

- My siblings for being the planners in making these happen. Big sis especially, I believe you are the "penggerak" segala2nya with mama as the penasihat. Sis D, Miss J and Mr Counselor beserta dengan best cousin Nanie, Adi and Abg Uji of Family 538, for being the actors and actress yg paling cool!

- Miss Nadzirah and Zulaikha for the cake, present and mempunyai NIAT untuk buat surprise =P

- Datin Nurul and POK Filah for the yummmmy nyaman dessert and for speeding di highway up to 130 km/hr just to be at the 'scene' on time! hahahah..

- Abg madi and Ka Mai with sons. Sporting jua belakun mcm nada papa tejadi and the kids menceria-riuhkan suasana.

I feel loved and appreciated. Thanks all. Thanks so much sebab sanggup begalap and bepanas, besusah payah bebelanja ntuk buat surprise ani.. I apologized jua coz i know mulut ku ani kdg2 inda beinsuran. and at times aku ada kasar jua. tapi atu di mulut ja, di ati lain. heheheh.

To those yang inda dapat and INDA datang *ehem2 to pehin. LOL*, i'll make a proper one nanti to jamu you all in the future. Insya Allah, doakan saja murah rezeki and panjang umur so that tani dapat bejumpa lagi. Hehehehe.

Seribu satu cover-up acts!

Friday

Afternoon

+ Donadz spoke to big sis that she was planning to come with dD to my house to give me a surprise on monday. Setelah menimbang itu ini, changed to saturday.

+ Big sis started to call and contact those yang close with me, esp. yg ikut nyalai di berakas last year. Then words were spread to others.

Evening

+ Kana tinggalkan di Mall with lil bro. Mama and Babah ke lumapas dengan alasan ngantar lauk. Tapi sebaliknya.... bali mee di ban selajur bali ayam.

+ Masa di kaunter, rupanya dapan mataku Miss J sama her colleague, c Nur, menapuk butul lada. Diurang takut aku curious meliat 3 butul atu. Even gelayan n talur setray pun kana tapuk!

+ Just remembered that i need to buy charger, unfortunately i didnt bring the phone. So kan datang g before aga Miss J balik. But then kana suruh saturday tia, after squash. Miss J balik awal jua kan. Selajur.

+ Filah wall aku. She wrote: "dinah~~heheh 2mrw kamu squash kn?? Hehe i dont think i can make it atas sebab2 yg inda dpt d elakkn x) nanti la afta kamu abis tourny a?? Ahhah tunggu ku fully recover dulu and abis bejait semua seluar ku hahahha xD"

+ Before tidur sampat chat with dD. Ku tnya ia join kah nda main squash isuk. Ia jawab, "Liatlah kalau ada urang ngantar".

Saturday

+ Aku aher bangun. tapi mama cooool saja. Suruh makan dulu before squash.

+ While kami on the way, Donadz seram sajuk migang kek. Sajuk tangan kaki nya menunggu. Dian lagi awal betunu. Tinggal separuh dah masa ku meniup.

+ They waited for me to masuk 'perangkap' in about 5+ minutes, in the dark! Aku chill menimang2 anak buahku di bawah. haha

+ Ke Mum's cancelled pasal di rumah kan menyalai jua.C amoi sampat lecture c adi arah game shop while aku asik meliat preview Shrek Forever After arah tv luar cinema Mall.

+ Adi bunyikan his car alarmed arah cornering to warn those yang di rumah that we're about to sampai.

+ Durang my family besyukur sal pelakun import paling mahal, sudi menghadirkan diri sekajap, yg membuatkan kami inda heran even betutup semua lampung, nda hal - BURUNG UJAN aka Bulbul *spelling?*

+ Hana and jidah knew about it all along~

Extra info:
In most of the surprises "thrown" at me, aku dapat figured it out at the very last seconds. Heheheheheh.
This time, clueless! So, congrats you all. Mission accomplished with flying colours~ ;p

Double Celebrations. BIG surprise!

2010-05-24T14:32:00.010+08:00

Happy face Happy face Happy face Happy face Happy face Happy faceHappy face Happy face

Its 24th May, my birthday! Heheh.
Now, it is time to blog about it.

I received two advanced surprises from beloved families.
The earliest "gift" i received was on the 16th may. That was when kami balik kampung for makan2 doa selamat for abg Kojek. The day started with us waking up as early as 5am. Getting ready with our stuffs, then nearly 7am we left to lumapas. Actually plan kan kesana on the 15th, skali ada tia jua perkara yg inda dapat dielakkan, so nda jadi. Sampai di sebarang, tarus ke rumah Pak Long, mendangani berusah. Dorang lagi awal, kul 4am udah start begotong royong membuat itu ini. Makan around 11am. After guests beransur mulih, amoi and me 'terkandas' di dapur. Kana suruh nyuci pinggan. Hoho. Nasib jua nda banyak banar since pinggan and cawannya yang pakai buang. heheh. Anyway, I heard later in the afternoon ada g second majlis. Tapi inda tau majlis apa and siapa.

Kan abis udah pinggan bebasuh, aku terasa curious salnya sunyi bah rumah ah. My mom and dad, pak long, mak long and the rest nada bunyinya. We knew dorang makan di bawah but batah juaa. Ku kan nyubuk, skali c amoi nda nyuruh. Ia nyuruh bebaya. Lumpat2 lagi ya tu sal aku majal kan nyubuk ke bawah. Hahahahaha =P. So, inda tah ku jadi. Bebaya tah kami.

Siap saja di dapur, ke ruang tamu jap rehat. Ngam ada Shahir nyanyi [konsert ulangan]. Meliat kajap. Heheh. Ngam lah timingnya kami kan turun, Mak usu datang dari dapur. Ia bawa turun ke bawah, arah kem. Udah di bawah, kana tahan di tangga dapan, melagau semua turun. Di kem ada dua mija; mija dapan tmpt durang mama makan. Mija sblh kusung masa ku liat atu. Thenn, mak su bawa aku tarus ke mija kusung atu. Udah kan ampir mija, tarus durang nyanyi lagu birthday and at the same time mak su tunjuk kek. Hahaha. Atu awal baaaa ku kana celebrate. Actually mak usu kan celebrate bday syaza in the week after 16th i think.Memandangkan semua udah bekumpul atu, jadi today tia. Mak usu selajurkan celebrate my bday. Hehehehehehe. THANK YOUUUU mak su, pak su, family pak long anddddd family 4261!! Terima kasih banget =p

Taken from The Royals

NEXT

The second surprised really got me. 22nd May 2010. Saturday.
Macam hari2 biasa. Aku bangun a bit late, nearly 12pm. 10 or 15 minutes after 2pm, aku minta antar ke UBD. I was half an hour early coz Jidah mbwa awal jua. Sekalinya Hana Mawi lagi tia awal. Hahah. Main cam biasa. Yang lainnya saja I was loud berabis. Stress pakah. Entah lah. Haha. AJKs squash club were having meeting di sana. Buat draw ntuk tournament. c Aqil ada with his cousin i think. We played til ngaleh. Hana had to leave early. I played badminton with simah as well. Oh yes, dD and Filah couldnt make it. Ok fine, nda papa. Next time ada..
Ada bah this one time aku main pakai set with simah. Udah kami abis, c jidah panik mliat aku keluar. Yang sampat ku liat ja ada paper di tangannya. D kuluk and tapuknya pastu tarus tia lari entah kmana. Ku bubut, no trace. HAHAHAH. Curious jua saya tuu. Tapi last2 ia sendiri dtg ngaga and ngunjuk tarus paper yg d kuluknya tadi. ASTEEEEEEHHH.. kan bagi adiah pun ia malu! A pair of earing, bling2 skull and a short letter. hahahah. Selahau anak atuu.. Nearly 6 aku changed clothes and cleaned up a bit salnya aku kan ke gadong tarus mbali charger for my motorola. Rusak kritikal dah, nda g mau charged. Sampai i terpaksa makai hp sabun klasik i. Hahah. Ada urg missed call. 276 ujungnya. C dayang amoi? Laa, rupanya they were asked to fetch me. Miss J mulih awal jua ari ani, dorang tah mbawa aku bali charger and aga Miss J tarus. C Adi nyabut2 Mum's teriyaki chicken, tais liur ku slajur. Tapi last2 cancel, nda jadi ke sana. Hmm.. sia2 pun. 7pm something, baru tulak dari gadong, mulih kerumah. On the way home, c Adi pasang lagu Tak Gendong. Nyanyi2 tah durang ne. Miss J tah iski. Fave partnya yang, "Haaa!!" atu. Beibun til kan sampai kumah. Masa arah tanjung, c Adi masang alarm ketanya *bunyi keta pulis*

Suasana rumah masa tu ku liat cam biasa. Lainnya saja ada urg menyalai di bawah, which i knew already. Ada nyalai2 ini malam for Yadi, my nephew. His birthday is on May 22nd. Ada burung ujan lagi, so aku paham udah. Andang sgala lampung betutup. Ada ebob, ku ambil. Ku kipak. Ku bawa naik, konon kan bawa rah mama. Abg uji naik di dapan. Ku tnya bhapa ia lalu dpn, c adi jawab, "eh biasa tu eh. Kan ngajutkan urang". Ok lah, ku naik cam biasa. Pikiran satu udah, kan mandi. Half way naik baru ku realise durang c amoi and Miss J yg blakang ku td ani, ilang. Heran plg p nda g tepikir apa2 dah ebob di tangan.

Mama babah di dapur, minum2. kan meeting usulnya. Ku show lah ebob ne pat mama. Mama pun mcm excited mliat ebob. Mama tah ngipak sambil mama nyuh aku buka lampung di bilik tamu.

Masa ku kan membuka atu, bepikir ku, "Eh, abg uji naik dri dpn jua td. Napa ya galap masih ani?" Nda ku sampat mikirkan jawapannya, ku silak tabir after buka sliding door. Patang beculik. Tapi ada bulat2 damit warna oren, kuning, merah. Diam *bunyi cengkarik*. Then....................SURPRISE!!!! Sebasar2 suara. Ntah sapa kah yg kedangaran hantap bunyinya atu. Hahahhaa. Serentak atu jua aku teterais. Tarus ku tutup tabir. In milliseconds atu, bepikirku, "mcm ada mua c filah, c nurul, c dd??". Time ku bepikir atu, antah cana ah. Nya big sis ia tarik aku masuk ke dalam. Aku pun nda ingat apa ku buat. yang pentingnya aku tekajut hantap. atukan urang lalah main squash. Tuala g sampir2 pat bahu. Beg kiri kanan. Raket g tu. Datang2 cematu. Durang punya lah nyaman ketawa meliat aku menangis. Err actually, TERnangis. HaHahaha. Terharu bah eh.. Terasa jua kana sayangi kan ;p

Behind the scenes' pictures:

Ebob, the 'prop'

While waiting for us to arrive

Yang pandai hantap buat mua selamba *including Miss J*

Cigu Nadzirah and Zulaikha, pemula segala2 nya.

Nurul, didn't expect her to involve in this and Filah, lagi tia!

Second celebration for Yadi. Aku mandi at this time. Nda sampat ikut nyanyi.

Mak aii.. Purplenya kek iteww. * credit to Cik Donadz and dang dD*

post-exam week

2010-05-14T15:00:00.003+08:00

Alrighty.. Exams are over. Yay~

And now what? LoL! It's just a week after the battle and I'm bored. I've spent most of this week with watching movies on astro and EAT!
I need new stuffs to do. Soo, I have planned to go to uni, arah my so-called private study room, to surf and chill. I'm just curious how would it feel to be there, without anything to worry and with nothing to think about. Seems like I have to cancel my plan. I am not allowed to go there, alone! *weep silently*

Anyhoo, Im at DST instead, arah my sis' office. Later gonna play squash. I really need it. I really need to stay active and fit, especially for these 3 months ahead. Cuti bah tu. Tomorrow, im going too. I'm joining Hana Mawi for practice. Aku mau ikut tournament. For experience! (Hana, 2010) (>.<)v

I'm quiet today

hola

2010-04-22T19:38:00.002+08:00

Exam is coming, very near already and im nervous .
I need to practice mooooree

Will blog moreee after exam, Insya Allah =D

March 19th, 2010

2010-03-27T02:21:00.015+08:00

Abg Ameer a.k.a abg BunaL, kawan big sis got married =D
Enjoy the pictures...

...THE END...

The Day I Made Myself Like an Orange Squash...

2010-03-18T02:49:00.008+08:00

Wednesday, my one active day. Filled with 4 hours straight lectures and about 4 hours of burning up some fats and calories.

This particular day could be fun and could be not. And this week, it was fun fun FUN! Well, it depends on few factors which I would not dare to list it in here (>.<) Anyway, my lectures went well. I felt energetic and my focus was nearly at its highest level. Okay, maybe I will list out one or two of those factors. Hehe. First of all, my two girlfriends, dD and Zyda, whom used to reluctant to come with me to the sport complex, joined me for some work-out. As usual, when bestfriends meet, you know what would happen. We were laughing on some stupid jokes, cracking up, bullying each other, all that stuffs. So, it really made my day. Zyda and dD fetched me from FOS cause that's where my last lecture was. This time, we went to fill our stomach with foods before burning them. ~~I saw him!~~ .

Nearly 3pm, left to SC. Filah waited for us already inside. As soon as dD and Zyda done with changing their clothes, we played squash right away since there was an empty court. 4 of us, with a racquet and of course a squash ball. LOL. We had to ask another racquet from the AJK.

I tell you all, we get tired after few rounds because we were LAUGHING really hard. Zyda was cracking stupid jokes. Crazy eh.

Nearly 5pm, we went out to bring a new friend, Majidah, touring the SC. Went to the tennis court. It seems fun. Next time i go try. hehe. Oh, there was a man whose car got locked up from inside. Sian... dD was trying to help but her way of helping is not right at all; by breaking the window! So we stopped her. Luckily.=P

5 plus, Netball TIME! Zyda went home just before we re-entered the gym. They were already doing the warm-up session. I didn't join since i'm already "stretched". Haha.

For the first game, I was in the Blue team. I became the Center i think. My favourite position back in primary school. LOL! Center's job is really "breath-taking" cause you have access to all area except for the goal-post zone. You are pretty much running on 98% of the court, obviously. I realised I am no longer qualified for that position. Im not FIT anymore! Hahaha. But I did about 3 games being a Center xP. The rest I did Goal Keeper. The Goal Shooter that i guarded were tall and awesome shooter too! Hard job eh. Well, I lost counts on how many games I've played. Random bah.

Many accidents, few injuries and LOADS of hilarious scenes happened during the 2 hours of playing. Players were bumped and rolled on the floor, shooters were slapped by keepers just because they're trying to defend them, stepped on each others feet, ankle-sprained *sakitt xs* and kind of worst-hilarious scene was when I accidentally stepped ON the ball, in the blink of eyes and hard! At any moment I could have been injured my foot. But, alhamdulillah i didn't. I landed safe and stable on the ball. I still remember vaguely, on that particular moment, I heard people shrieked and we were like pausing for milliseconds. Macam main freeze ani bah. hahah.

Then I heard from a member that they called that "stunt" as "circus". Haha. Bida!

Anna, she was one of the two players yang injured. She was jumping high to grab the ball. Maybe salah step, she fell and tepelicuk. Aduh! Sakit tuuu. Jualagi indeee. Huhu. The game automatically stopped and resumed after the court was cleared.

Ada lagi this one scene, where some of us, beginners, played. I was playing GK and watching the rest of the teams on the other side of the court. Can see bah they were trying to get the ball sampai bula atu gugur beguling di lantai and ramai-ramai menguyung. Ada jua usulnya macam kan menangkap ayam. Hahah. Kiut banar dorang atu. Most of the time jua all of them stayed at one place. Yatah the Umpire called it "pusu". Lagi tia. Haha. Kesian kami GK and GS cause inda dapat join. Pedah ja off-side xP.

We stopped at 7pm and everyone slowly leaved the place.

Mum fetched me and we went straight to Lambak. And here I am, using my cousin's laptop, updating my blog =D
AND i do feel like an orange squash. Tired and muscle-ache everywhere xD

THE END. Sungguh bejabir aku malam ini. hehehe

*I restrained myself from looking directly into your eyes cause i was afraid that your eyes would slice my heart like me slicing the onion*

"Forget"

2010-03-17T01:24:00.004+08:00

Hard to forget, hard to read, but nice to look at :P
Days are 50% complete when i get to watch your "cooling and soothing" face.

Well,
Don't worry,
Im still walking on reality,
Cause I know you and me,
though are close,
obviously,
are living in a different bunch of societies.

Currently loving ur expressions *hearts* ",)v

Netball, I am back!

2010-03-10T20:37:00.004+08:00

Before semester break, aku sign up to be a member. Today, wednesday, after class ended at 2pm, Zyda, Nurul, Filah and me went to the sports centre. Kami jogging di track. Atu hangatt.. uja dorang tu, masak daging. haha.
Only for two rounds, we stopped coz it was too hot. Kami main squash instead. Gila, laughing-out-loud day lah. Terutamanya bila c jidah n c filah betamu. Aku yg lalah ketawa.. Then around 5 plus, arah netball court. I stayed til half-past seven i think..

I saw that face. I like it and i missed it already when he went home quite early.

boredooms day

2010-03-06T22:45:00.001+08:00

Im dead bored. wanted to go online, nada lappy. lappy babah usak. nda g baik. aduhh.. kan edit pictures punnn pyh.. kan minjamm.. kdg2 atu mcm pminta sdakah plg usulku. ksian ksian. see how bored i am. i think of stupid things. ughh.this is ugly

Have fun with these pictures

2010-02-26T23:20:00.010+08:00

Pantai Jerudong, tanah tumpah darahku, buat kesekian kalinya kami berkunjung kesana.

The newly-wed couple belanja kami eskem Mr Softy..

My anak buah, yang nda pndai tinggal if kami bejalan; kira pembubut no. 1 lah ia ni, with his chocolate. haha

Mine.. Always vanilla

When we're still young, very2 young, kami selalu bemain di sni. Plus, umah kami pun nda jua jauh banar.. Ganya ruginya, masa atu kami masih damit. So banyak mainan yg kami nda dpt main sal nda cukup ketinggian. Rugi tah kids at our age and onwards. Haha.

Ticket was paid by abang again. hehe. Thank youuuu Having fun at the Jerudong Park Playground.

Aris with yadi, the nephew.

Ani masa aku cari Company Accounting's textbook at T.A Morgan. Too bad, I was a bit late. The textbook sold out and tinggal yg reserved saja.. So, left me with no choice. I just go photocopy. LOL~

At SKH, looking for stationeries.. Again, c Yadi, the nephew. Begauk sama usu nya.. aha Singgah skajap arah NBT. If im not mistaken, this was before the chinese new year.

So, these were my activities for the first two months of 2010. There's some more. Might add it up nanti.. Maybe. hehe.

duLL

2010-02-26T22:40:00.003+08:00

My blog is dull cause.....i havent post up any pictures yet! Kan kan kan.. hehe. makin pemalas udah aku ani.. hoho.. anyway td pg i went to pantai, nulung my ngangah, smpai lah ke malam. ngaleh eh.. and my skin has darkened. hmm.. luckily cuti kan.. semester break has started! Just for a week though. hehe. Got assignment to do and need to update my workssss. Been slacking for the past few weeks. haihhh

Last night, my siblings and i went out for jalan2. But we end up at Excapade, makan sushi. Asteee.. nda pulang sampat window shopping sal kadai tutup. Hahahah. So, tepaksa tah postpone to an unknown day and date untuk jalan2. More pictures here

BelateD BelateD!!

2010-02-23T18:10:00.002+08:00

Oh I just remembered that I've missed to greet my dear friend, Ammie Faryzzan, on her birthday. I was at Sabah last time, that's why I couldn't greet her on time. She never missed mine so i feel bad about this =( Lagipun we've been friend since skulah ugama duluuuuuuu. haha. batah dah tu ertinya..

Anyway, happy birthday, happy birthday, happy birthday Ammie dear. Semoga panjang umur dan murah rezeki serta bahagia di samping si dia =) ku doakan kamu berkekalan, aminn..

I'm sorry babe
*hearts*

"Negaraku Brunei Darussalam"

2010-02-23T17:38:00.003+08:00

Happy 26th National Day dear Bruneian. Last night was meriah. I heard and saw fireworks belatupan here and there. Ada yg buat family gathering, menyalai and all sort of ways of celebration. I can feel yang this year is more more meriah than few years back. Thats a good thing!

Aku masa ni lapar banarnya.. haha. I was taking turn in looking after my baby nephew and doing my laundry. So, i end up sitting infront of this lappy instead of studying. hoho. Just taking a break.

Oh, i just checked my phone and i received a msg from someone asking pasal class? I teach tuition no more. hehe. Salah sent kali anak atu. Anyway,

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI KEBANGSAAN BRUNEI DARUSSALAM!!

back to HOMELAND!

2010-02-08T20:54:00.004+08:00

Trip to Menumbok, Sabah, was tiring. My body is aching. But the experiences and moments are preciously valuable. Will miss it the most in spite of few issues. Met long-lost relatives. We took lotsa pictures. Nanti tah upload.

25th, 26th and 28th of January

2010-01-28T21:13:00.005+08:00

BIRTHDAYSSSSS of the important people in my life!!

First two people; Usu Aji and MeL.

Then; Saiful Rijal, the best buddy

Lastly; Sarah, the bestfriend.

Pandai kamu nyusun carta kelahiran ah. Betamu2. Hahaha. Just wanna annouce it here so that those yang kenal kamu tau kamu punya birthday. Ahax!

Squash is fun indeed!

2010-01-28T20:39:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, yes, on wednesay, i played squash.

The final lecture ended at 2pm. I ask Zyda, one of the best girl of mine, to fetch and drop me arah my sister's workplace to get the car. *Thanks darl <3*>

I went there alone as the rest were "taking a day off" from squash. Haha. I was having an urge to do some sports that day, plus, Filah might be coming jua. So, as a "half-senior" squash member, aku datang saja dangani. Haha. To my surprise, Simah decided to come jua. So, kami main main main. Badminton and Squash. It was fun loh.. Ngaleh tapi siuk if you play with the pros. We skipped the warm-up sessions and played badminton instead. LOL~ the 2 AJKs asked us to join them in the court. sweet eh. maybe we'll reconsider about registering for this sem. Even we have not registered as members yet, but we acted like one since we are so used to it. Oh well, kebiasaan is kebiasaan. Kan mengubah, will takes time. We've been part of squash club since our FIRST semester.haha. We dangani the juniors as in the new members to learn the basics and played 3 quarter game. Hmmm... the most siok thing was.. i get to see the mysterious face from that particular person in the sports hall. HAHA. Cuci mata tu nda bleh tinggal~

Show off time~

2010-01-25T13:45:00.006+08:00

Im using c dD cute new lappy~ hahaha. udah atu.. kana pinjami ani, mesti give something in return. so i say pujian lah baik kan pembagi ku patnya. wahahahaha. so, nice eh her lappy ani. well, lappy baru lahh katakan. nyehehehe. aku dangani ia makan sambiil ku cium bau meh libarnya. ahax! My lecture will starts soon, which is around 2.10pm at CLT, so.. im off lah dulu.. nyehehehe.

To jidah, i hate you darling.. u nda jadi ah.. rindu i kan jumpa ni. hahahahha. mwahss

Down with Flu

2010-01-21T21:38:00.003+08:00

Aku selisma.. helpp!! I dun laik it. It gives me more pain in the head. Ahax! Over eh. Tapi yeah, sakit berabis kepala ku ni.. I really want to avoid having runny nose but... payah. I'm allergic to anything yang kan ampir macam dust.. Bulu2-an binatang pun buleh trigger my selisma and weaken the strength of my immune system.

Week 2, Semester IV, Year 2010

2010-01-20T20:44:00.005+08:00

Having lectures straight from 10am till 1pm, then continued with tutorial really gave me throbbing pain in the head. The lecturer for tutorial lagi laju tu while explaining.

But later in the afternoon, as promised, Hana, Simah and I main squash and badminton. Good stuffs. Well, healthy stuffs lah. Haha. My pain reduced bit by bit and eventually it disappeared. Nyaman jua rasanya. Usulnya i need to squash more. Anddd! i need to play tournament-style game, baru bepaluh brabis. I need it. "Expanding" and "extending" udah size ku ne. huhuuu.

I feels like becoming a clam today... I lazy kan speak up and mingle after squash ah. Ngalih. Oh yes, after sister fetched me from SC, kami tarus ke Cosmo kan tu, jumpa her bestfriend. Yatah what i did was re-writing my notes before and after makan, as if im in my own world. Malas jua sudah tu. Nyampuk a bit ja, i think. Haha.

Ahhh.. one more thing jua. Many thanks to a cool-lame friend of mine, Fiq, for lending me the whole bag of racquets instead of one. Hahahaha. Thanks a lot.

Noooo~

2010-01-07T23:12:00.003+08:00

Holiday is about to end! Im so not ready. grrrrrr

Inspired after watching a movie.....

2009-12-31T02:31:00.006+08:00

I do this all the time. I like to blog when im inspired.too.. never said that i blog only when im down.. heheh.
Back to the movie.. Ive lost count on how many times ive watched it. Doesnt bores me so far~ Still inspiring... This would be the right movie to watch if ure trying to fit in and be in the upper-class-group *whatever you call them*... Probably pasal this movie, in a way, has something similar with my past. Part c Jenna lupakan bestfriendnya, Matt, and ia pun inda tau pasal apa since she had jumped 17 years ahead. My story was i forgot why kami inda betagur masa darjah 6 sdgkan masa darjah 5, we were close buddy.
Tapi alhamdulillah, masa ani, we're back being bestfriend. Hahah. He always brings up that thing whenever we talk. Ciss.. Suka buat aku guilty. I dont even know how and why. Totally 0. When i asked him whether ia ingat kenapa and ia cakap cani; "ko ada kawan baru masa atu. iatah ko inda ingat aku. tarus ko lupakan." something catu lah or is it a bit exaggerated? haha. tell me if it is Sa *wink2*.. Im sorry if banaar aku buat catu. I didnt mean it.. i swear.. ~~Ko pun nda jua buat papa~~. haha. He's a good man actually. MEAN but still nice. Suka menyamal and mengambang. hahahahaha. still ku sayang kan ia.. Ingat ku masih time kami ke rumahnya, buat history project, main pingpong, ada hamster, mupul sumbui2.. haha. rindu ku eh masa lalu ku atu...

Till then..

Hu-li-dei

2009-12-29T22:47:00.008+08:00

I need more holidaysss. Hahaha. Ketamakan! Inda plg happy banar cuti this time. I was having some kind of depression but i managed to handle it. Alhamdulillah. However, there were some new stuffs i did. So, it was fine and quite fun. Sleepover at Lambak AND Limbang, arah Usu aji for about 3 nights and 4 days. Coolies~ Ku and amoi, jadi teman Mak usu while usu kaja. We did late night movies. Alah plg kami sal DVD atu teluan banyak. Inda semua teliat. Only a few. Other than that, begilir memasak, jaga Syaza.. Ngehehe. I miss her.

The first thing we did was karaoke-ing for about 2 hours. Melapaskan gian. hahaha. Aku jadi back-up jew. Amoi did all the singing. HAHAHA. Mak Su, bleh jadi champion eh suaranya. Meremangg. Ari Ahad, turun ke sports hall to play badminton. Syaza main2 dalam becanya. Nasib nda ramai urang as it was raining jua.

The first two nights, black out. "Panas" kami atu kali. wahahahha.
Well well well, atu saja dulu for my first night bemalam di Limbang. Will continue on the next entry. So long peeps!

Two consecutive tiring dayssss

2009-12-08T20:00:00.012+08:00

Yeah.. it was tiring indeed! I went to the DST Carnival on the 5th and 6th Dec. just because sister works there and we got a parking ticket! Kalau inda, I would live and dream on for staying the whole day at the carnival. Haha. Mama inda suka being at crowded places bah and parking g jauh tu.. hehe. So, lil sis took a day off from work for the carnival. We went to fetch cousin Nani from ITB around 11am then dropped sis off at DST. Kami balik dulu since it only started at 2pm.

Siap2 itu ini, around 2 plus kami sampai. People were building on or should i say already ramai sudah. Waktu Berakhir from A Band Once greeted our arrival. His voice, soothing banar. Mood ku tambah ok that time. haha. Took few pictures of them and then headed to the games area. It was on sudah. We we're a bit blur at first. For some games, we have to register at the booth. Yatah kami missed the first round. Have to wait for the next one which will be opened for registration at 4pm. While waiting atu, kami bemain2 lah.. Lil sis buang tebiat, mbwa kami mengala arah Uni Arcade. Just to kill time she said. We registered for Run Chicken Run and Catch a Kali games. Haha. Lau main obstacle tu, cali jua. Nani managed to get one kali, Lil sis caught 3 kalis and as for me, i got four! We even masuk ke dalam pool instead of trying to catch it from outside. Karang tebalik masuk ke dalam. Mandi tu. Tapi kami nda manang. Ada yg dapat seven ah. As y'all know, Kali is very licin.

The weather was cloudy and I tell you, it was extremely windy! Kelimpanan lehnya. Tudung c nani sikit g blown away from her head! Haha. Yatah kami masuk ke uni arcade atu. betapuk kajap. For RCR, lil sis manang for women category. She got herself an ESPN Director's Foladable Chair. Black and Red lagi tu! Cesh. And im at the 2nd place. I got a thermal jug. Not bad. Bulih ku bebata ke UBD. HAHAHAH.

After games atu, we went to the camp since kan magrib udah. Kan ujan jua kan. We just stayed and watched apa yang ada di pentas. Haha. Sis Diana won herself a voucher from Hua Ho. Lucky her. We get to sit on the second row. Ada dorang Akim, Aril and Heliza performed. Nda plg nyanyi, tapi buat game show with the audience. Yadi naik on the stage for poco2. haha. While Aril searching for a 'prey'

10.30pm ada fireworks but we couldnt stay cos kan aga lil bro kaja at 10pm. Oh btw, today aku tejumpa c hawt guy and friends. P ia no longer hawt lah. Kisah lama tu. Haha. Then some UBDians. Last skali atu sapa nahh.. urang yang ku rindui ah.. bestfriendkuuu c Saaaa.. Finally, tejumpa jua. Sampat jua ceta2 before i have to minta diri. Nyehs.

Next day, 6th Dec. Kami dtg awal, around 10am. Mama n babah kan liat show kumpulan 69 ah. Haha. This time aku bawa dD and her sis since aku singgah jua kumah durang ngantar langsat. Slajur tah jua. Kami duk dapan. Lum ramai banar that time yatah nmpk kami 3 duk 2 dari dapan tu. Haha. Odah ya, kana target ntuk naik ke pentas. P kami suh Lya ja. She got easi $5. Lunch time kami ke gadong jap. dangani lil sis break. So we missed the magic show, relentless dancers and first half of maria's show. Today, no games. Just sit and relax di kem.

Kumpulan 69

DJ Nazrey joining the DJ Competition. He's cool. Pndai magic trick g tu. nyehs.

Maria singing "Sesaat Kau Hadir" sambil rambutnya di terbangkan angin.

Next on the show was VJ Utt. Gameshow jua for his fans. Macam2 ada. I like the one yang kana suruh rapping. Haha. Team biru kiut. Especially yg did the rapping. Haha

At 5.15pm, AF celebs punya turn. So like yesterday, dorang panggil audience to come up on the stage. Once again, Alya volunteered to naik masa Akim tanya sapa hafal lagu Bengang. Ia minat so ia nda buang peluang laaah.. She get to sing with him. Today Akim pakai spec. Inda tia nmpk matanya yg redup atu. Cewah. Hahaha.

Aril cari urang pandai shuffle. C Yadi apa g. Naik jua since atu andang "field"nya instead of poco2. Hahaha. Aril betanya audience apa pliatan durang urang shuffle atu. Ada g tu yang telondeh sluarnya. Nampak boxer kuning. HAHA.

Malam was Jamie Yeo and Henry Golding's turn. Camera ku low batt udah. So nda banyak pictures taken. Oh lupa, today mama plg dapat lucky draw. Starter pack and on the go broadband. By the end of the day, everyone was so exhausted. Before balik, sampat begmbr with Raymond, the big snake and Gina, the yellow one.

Atu tah saja kisah ku di DST Carnival. It was fun ^^

changessss

2009-12-05T13:04:00.002+08:00

Im thinking of changing my url.. apa bek ahhhhhh.

oh btw im going to the DST Carnival later... I hope siuk and everyone is in a good mood. Lau inda, boring tia kannn... Happy Happy Happyyyy. Mesti aku happy. Hahah. Majallll

officiaLLy OVER!

2009-12-04T13:18:00.005+08:00

I mean my exam. It is officially over. It ended yesterday. I was not satisfied with what i did for the last paper. Time management ku still poor. Okayy.. enough about exam. Now, i need to pamper myself with something FUN cause it is HOLIDAY! Been planning to do DVD marathon on Korean drama series, namely, My Girl and Boys Over Flowers. Attending DST Carnival which is tomorrow! Not forgetting, do some SPORTS like jogging and playing squash. I need to reduce some kilos. Hopefully aku dapat! Haha. And jua, tomorrow Hana invited me to her lil brother's birthday party and play bouncer. Untuk buang stress. haha. Im not sure I could attend it cause, you know..I wish i can plg..

New thing happening in our family is my lil brother, aris, started working sudah! Grown up udah panya adiku bungsu atu. huhu. He works somewhere in the The Mall's restaurant. Mama reluctant to pay a visit to his workplace cause mama feels kesian, as if kami dera ia untuk kaja. Its his wish to kaja after ia abis exam. Kan merasa bekaja, nah.. biar ya.. so that after school re-opens, he will be concentrating on his studies. Yesterday ia ke saloon to trim his hair. Lagipun bosnya nyuruh ia begunting sal rambutnya panjang. Ia buat japanese style, trend masani. He really likes it and puas atinya. Aku pun puas ati meliat. Ruggeddd! Haha. He went to the saloon where i cut my hair, De' Image Saloon, Gadong. Mama dulu pernah kesana jua, yatah ia suggest kami to go there since the workers pun very friendly and nice. *The key to keep your customers is just one, that is, GOOD SERVICE* If atu ada, bah.. we'll be attracted to come again ^^)v.

Tapinya kan.. siuk plg ndangar adi kaja udah atu.. tapi di umah sunyi. Biasa ada ia men game, blasting the speaker with his fave songs and bemain melayan the nephews. Now tinggal my parents, my sis, our cats and me sja g while the rest kaja. I cant imagine cemana nanti one day if kami semua udah kaja and tinggal ja my parents di umah.. huhu.

Uh.. got to go.. kan jogging. See yaa~

The moment i feel something...

2009-11-29T22:58:00.005+08:00

Been thinking too much lately... Luckily it is the exam week that it helps much in washing away all of those thoughts. Not useful one i guess. Not the one that i want to keep in mind all day long.
Probably it'll spill as i go on typing anything that came popping out of my mind.

O well, i feel like talking to someone but then, got no one to go to.. Hmmm... i think i got plg tapi malas kan kacau. And i would end up talking about different things plang tu. Will still hide the "true" stories. So difficult being a keeper (T_T)

Currently, im listening to Peter Murphy's song. Addiction though it brings some kind of pain to myself. Why kan.. I feel for him still kah.. Really hates this kind of feeling. Ive been wanting to move on and leave everything behind. But people still im left behind and they are ahead of me. My dear buddy is married to her beloved already. Even my bestie has already married way long before her. C sa is also happily in love with her girl. Leaving me behind. Huhuh. So sad.. Even sadder *ada such word ka?*, i am missing him. sigh. Why am i missing everybody at this moment?? make me feel sad saja eh. Im tired, so so tired of all these. I want to be happy, everyday, everyhour and every minute. gesshh..

I need a "refreshment" kali. Need a breakaway.

Oh btw, i cut my hair about 23 days ago. The shortest so far. Excluding my childhood punya record lah. harharhar.

Im sickkkk... cause im sleepy. Haha. Enough eh. Mood an blogging dah ilang. Off to bed dulu~

so looking forward to hang out with my cousins and girlfriendsss

W.A.L.L

2009-11-10T17:24:00.002+08:00

when can i break the wall?

oh yes~ oh no~

2009-10-26T13:34:00.005+08:00

Aku tournament karang at 4pm.. I'm partially happy and partially nervous cause I've been "retiring" from any tournament, real tournament, since I was in primary school, i guess.. Masa tu inter-school tournament.. Aku joined badminton and netball. Can say that I'm a bit active back then. During high school and college, aku nda ikut anything related to sports. Semua yang macam association. Club yang need aku buat perkara dalam sekulah ja mcm PYRO, BCAS.. For once only aku ikut sports day punya game. Atu pun masa lower 6. I think.. So aku lupa udah cemana rasanya belawan ani.. Hayssshh.. Nervous inda pndai beranti.. Lain lah kalau aku ani handal udah. Hahahaha. Inda apa lah.. Like my friend's said, just play for fun! Gonna keep that in mind. Fun Fun Fun!! Hahaha.

At the moment aku lepak arah big sis' office.. Saja2 membuang gagar.. kwang kwang kwang~ So aku bermain-main dan hapdet blog! Di malam dah i had to force myself to sleep.

ahhh.. im not in love btw.

10 !!

2009-10-09T20:48:00.004+08:00

We're in the month of OCTOBER now.. whew... inda terasa..
and jua...inda terasa batah sudah ku inda update. malash and nothing to share jua bah. hehe..
oh yess.. recently ada PMUBD info day. Our club pun involved. So i took the responsibility to help jaga the booth since im quite "unpack" with classes. That was my first experience i think. Ive never been active in any club for many years. hoho.

lots to share when im against time.. as always.. hehe. got to go now.

mentally ill

2009-09-25T23:01:00.005+08:00

Im too tired of being the one who takes the blame of everything. Too tired of the fact that i couldnt even say a word to show that i disagree with something. Even if i try to show, i was said to be lazy, insincere and more stuffs. O god.. i couldnt take it anymore. Dont i deserves good stuffs? Am i only meant to do all the tiring and grubby job? Ive tried my very best to give the best. To be the best. To be there. To lend a hand. Not to burden them. Infact ive tried with all i have to lighten what burden they have been carrying all these times. I once cried everynight, being worried about their safety cause i couldnt afford to lose them. I love them more than anyone else does. I dont even care to claim back what i have given to them cause i know i live to help.. I live to take care of them. BUT what do i get? "Malas" "Bekira" " Di suruh pun marung" "Inda ikhlas jangan tah" "Kalau behajat pandai itu ini".. It hurts. Only God knows how it feels. Even if i tried to be nice, im still seen as the bad one. I just need appreciation. I dont need pujian. Just remember what i have contributed. Or just say nice words to me. Do scold when im slow. Dont sarcastically say things thats quite far from the truth. I do more things than them. I can say that i am major in 'lifting up' peoples burden while the rest are taking it as their minor. Im tired. I feels like want to go somewhere, a place where no one would be able to find me. Furthermore, i know no one will try to find me unless they need me to do something for them. No one will find me because they care about me. They will only care because there'll be no one to shout at, no one to scold at, no one to be instructed to do things for them. Is my life being determined by them? As if i dont have life of my own. Im really hurt this time. If only i can be open with everything in here. You would understands better. I dont ask much. I need respect, I need consideration. I cant do EVERYTHING. I am no robot. I am no computer that function when you hit any keys. Then when i try to do the same as others been doing, im treated as if ive never ever did at least a good thing to them.

Before some get it wrong, im not trying to make myself look good here. I dont care with what you want me to do. But at times, i need to do my own stuff. I need my own leisure time. I dont give reason when someone asked me to help them. Especially those two. I dont give reasons like, "Sorry. I couldnt help you. I have test tomorrow." I would not have the heart to say that. I would just help without saying anything about it. Id rather keep it silence.

There's this someone said to me. Infront of everyone. " U imagine, everytime you said something nasty or mad at someone, u hit a nail into the wall. Do it everytime u have that feeling. Then remove it. What u'll see? You will see holes which represent cuts in someone's feeling. Which will always shows even if u try to fix the hole. Even if u apologise to those hurts, they'll still remember." And i still remember when the same person said, "if u want to confront someone, do it on one to one. Not infront of other people. You'd want to save their face".

What ive seen is "cakap tak serupa bikin" . . . .

"Salahkah aku
Bila aku bukanlah
Seperti aku yang dahulu"

Nearly end of Ramadhan

2009-09-19T15:02:00.004+08:00

I really hope Raya will fall tomorrow coz i want to balik kampung and celebrate Aidilfitri with nini at Limbang. Not only with nini, but also with our relatives yang jarang2 bekumpul masa raya, namely Mak Long's family. Cant wait to join them masak Lemang as they always do every Raya eve. Oh btw, i have class later at 4pm. Haysshh.. Cuti kana bagi at the very end of Ramadhan week. Raya punya feel pun nda g ada.. but i do smell it. Haha. Mama already baked cakes, oredered by cousins and big sis has come up with two new kind of cakes for us. How would our Raya be this year? I wonder......

Got to go now... I have to get ready for last lecture of this month. Can i not go? Huuuuu

Grumpy mode[ =< ]

2009-09-07T00:19:00.005+08:00

Dinah likes this

Always happens this way.. It makes me sick. Makes me hurt. Makes me mad. Makes me grumpy.
Buwisit.
Duh~ Anyway, enough ranting.

I feels like updating. Ive been rajin since i changed my layout. Hahahaa.
Late afternoon, we went to the border to send my cousin. She arrived at RBA last night.
Im expecting or shall i say hoping that this year's raya will be a big one since everyone is coming back home. Yeaaaaayyyy~ Cant wait! Balik kampong~ ooo balik kampong~ This thing makes me counting. Looking forward to beraya plg eh. Asteeehh.. Puasa dulu, puasa.. 10 malam terakhir pun balum.. Aduyaii..

After sungkai, around 8 lah to be exact, went to gadong to buy some groceries and stuff for our room. Semangat neh masih kan ngusai bilik. As usual and like always *haha*, Gadong sentiasa jam-packed with cars and people. I bought new kain for college. Lain kan dibali, lain yang dibali.. Hoho. What else did i buy ah.. Not much lah. Wanted to buy perfume but then inda jadi. Brapa kali lintas2 and sniffing, p ati nda kuat kan bali. So, maybe next time..

Nah, bis tia pa kan ku story. Mood trabangs dah~

irritating..

2009-09-06T19:49:00.003+08:00

Inda ku paham urg kitani ani... kana lagau makan, ukan main laju. Mengaut laju. Mcm kan belusir makanan di mija atu. TAPI! udah atu inda pandai abis. Ayam pun inda sampai nampak tulang. Lauk kakal berisi. Nasi? Pun betimbun kakal di pinggan. Mengapa ya kian tu. Huhuhu. Sakit mata i meliat eh.. Inda kan meliat pun teliat.. Haysshh.. Mental saya pulang. Hahaha. Bisainya ah.. Cuatah kenali dulu sais atau kapasiti isi parut atu. Pastu mengaut ikut sukat-sukatnya.. Jgn telabeh. Mun kurang, dapat nambah.. Mun tantu abis, mana saja pulang. Pembaziran bahh.. Its not good.. Kan kan kan.. Sayang bah rezeki di buang catu ganya..

Beceramah ku tarus lehnya..

Ah.. satu jua.. Aku inda paham jua.. Mengapa urang suka membuang sampah sesuka atinya?... Apa masalahnya?... Let say kulit gula-gula.. Perasanku inda jua basar mana benda atu.. dapat jua simpan dalam pakit dulu. Dah bjumpa tong sampah baru membuang.. Ani inda ah.. Pasnya makan.. shiuu~ d umbannya ja ke tanah.. di lapaskannya on air.. di mainnya tia plg.. Lastly, environment yang bida.. Betumpuk ngan sampah.. Ada jua yang bepikiran, nda apa.. skali ani ja ku membuang.. Tapi cua imagine, mun 100 urang bpikiran catu? Baiknya 100, mun smua penduduk kitani ani bepikiran catu? Tinggalam banar leh sampah. Contoh paling nampak, di pantai.. Ish ish ish.. Malu eh. Ada that time, kami bawa my cousin sama kawan2nya yang bukan tinggal di sini, round di pantai. Kami nda notice yang pantai atu besampah.. pasal slalu mliat atu kali.. tapi durang, gerenti tah first thing yg ia nampak sampah bejurit atu.. Bida eh.. Di pungut2, cleaning campaign apa.. sama jua bejurit balik. Dsediakan tong sampah banyak2, kakal jua ada yang inda tetulus. Inda ku paham banar...

urgh

2009-09-05T19:23:00.004+08:00

Living with a selfish person is not easy unless you own a big heart.

I dont.

Time to change. . .

2009-09-04T19:47:00.008+08:00

Tiring day indeed. Our room has been transformed into PINK colour! No, its not that we painted our wall pink, we just changed the bed sheet. Totally pink. Theme? Stripes. Hahahah. We moved few stuff and have new arrangements. Ngaleh eh mengeluar-masukkan barang atu.. and i hate menyusun barang. Not my bidang. Menyamakkan barang, yes, bagi saja arahku.. I can do it for you. Hahahaha.. Pictures? Nah~~

full of colourss

Aaaaa.. what else should i write for today's update ah.. And ummm.. As usual, im still grumpy.. but kureng sikit. Yay~ haha. skadar..
So, yesterday, UBD allowance baru kluar.. so secara natural *haha*, i went out and do some window shopping and cuci mata tarus. Batah sudah ku inda keluar meliat dunia except for dunia campus. I bumped into some friends, namely Rina, the first yang aku jumpa. Atu pun di jamban *and few places afterward* .She was doing few touch ups. Hahahah. Tkajuts kali kami ah mliat each other. Then~ sapa g ku nampak ani ah.. My maths mates.. Some UBDians yg aku kenal muka tapi inda tau nama. hohohoh. Di Jaya, sapa nah yg menagur? C Datin Nuyul! Cecapi hantap anak atu. Hahahaha. Panat inda beranti.. Bek tah di galar Datin PIB kali eh.. Usulnya ia bejalan dari balik skulah.. sal ia ckp ia bangas. wawawawawa. maap datin ah xp. Then Hadri and the gang! Hahaha. Siuk eh.. makan eskem DQ g lagi tu at 10pm.. Then, lastly my best pare, c jidah. Haha. Since tujuan kami sama, then sama2 tah kami skajap.. Bahapa nah? Nyucuk usin. Lol~ I wonder, was yesterday hari jalan2 sedunia? Or was it pasal allowance for BI and TA kluar? hahah. I guess the latter reason suits the best. kekekeke.

. . . I am supposed to be in bed right now coz its half past eleven already. Tomorrow got early class. Tapinya kan.. i just got back from fetching my lil sister from work and i got myself a chocolate, i.e. Picnic. I know right... its already late for junk food. Heheheh.. liur puasa. Well, in few minute time, i'll be signing off and head to bed. Before that, i think i have things to say. I have lots going in my mind. Like always. But i dont know if i am able to spill it out into words.. mental block.

Ive guess so.. Ada roadblock di minda ku.. Nanti lah saja.. Below are lyrics taken from a song which was introduced by big sis and i still havent listen to it. hoho. but the lyrics are nice though..

Titled I'll Keep Your Memory Vague - Finger Eleven

"Now you've gone away
Don't worry it's okay
That you're gone away
Further than yesterday
But you'll never leave these scenes
My mind replays

Where in the world have you gone now?"

weird weird weird weird and more weird

2009-08-28T05:58:00.010+08:00

Life is for sure has ups and downs. Yesterday we were okay and today we are not.

Yesterday, in campus, I was in the "silent mode" and I didnt talk much except for maths stuff. Felt like my mouth was heavy and glued. I felt reluctant to talk as i didnt have anything to talk about. Im a quite person afterall ;p O well.

I overcame my fear of being alone in attending a meeting last wednesday. Hahah. Thats so kanak-kanak. Anyway, Im joining a new club that is a El De Legua Retratista Fotografia, Photogpraphy. Difficult to pronounce? Yes, it is and I was too. But now, i can pronounce it quite well. After few times saying it and paling inda pun ku sabut saja ELDRF. Huahuahua. I have been planning to join this club since last semester, with my friend Xee Da. In fact, i have been interested to join photography club since MD tapi yalah.. malas 'cause no one to go with. That was before. Now, i want to go out of my comfort zone and step forward to go for my interest despite of scared being alone. I have received a "wake-up" call from some friends. In a way, they are like saying, "Sorry, friends wont be with you all the time unless you walk their way". And i kinda believed that i can read people's faces quite well... I believed that. If i am wrong, then please, prove it to me.

Nah, ke laut tia ceritaku pasal photography. haha. Bah, lets get back to it. I am joining with two friends of mine, INSYA ALLAH and alhamdulillah that at least i have them to be with me. After we submit the form next week, then we'll officially become members of the club. AND, next week sudah start the activities. I aint gonna tell until the day has come. Will reveal about it after wednesday. Hehehe.
I wish to learn more about photography. The dos and donts. Techniques and some new stuffs. Indapun, ambil experience ja. Learn from the pro.

All of the above is just weird.........for me! haha

My blog is dead and ruined! I need a new layout. Haysssh~

im on top of the circle these few days...thanks to aLLaH

2009-08-20T19:46:00.011+08:00

Its thursday.. It used to be my favourite day of the week.. but no longer become one since i go to UBD.. for unclear reasons x]

Anyway, i can feel that i no longer whine over small things and im less grumpy. Syukur alhamdulliah. Ive found my peace back. Due to the positiveness of my mind, everything turns out to be better. Even for a small thing. Thats the power of a positive mind. Im sure all of us are aware of that. Its just ada masanya tani ignore saja to think positively. Pasal negative thinking atu kuat.. adding in insecurity, doubt and whatnot, atu yang buat tani down. Eh i wanted to tell about happy stories jua ni. Inda pulang happy banar. Kira macam pleasant saja.

First lecture started at 8am and i came a bit early. Weather type is my fave one, rainy. Feels nice with wind blowing my baju kurong and my tudung. Worsen my already-worst tudung. Haha. Tapi siuk. After the 1st 2hours lecture done, headed to fos, got tutorial, and i bumped into Nuddin first, then Afiq. I told them that aku kan balikkan buku arah sir. Iatah if possible aku mau bawa dorang. Indakan i alone ke staffnya. huhu. But then theyve got class too. So inda kan ku bawa escape. Masuk tutorial and then break 1 hour at the cafe. Before that, which was ard 11am i gave Sir H a call. Mcm tah ku tau staff barunya located di tingkat berapa. I texted him early in the morning nada ia reply. Haiyaa. andang men malas text messaging ka.. anyway, after got his location, after dgni Filah kami ke IPI. Fortunately, dorang BEng abis lecture awal! Yay~ Nuddin messaged and kami ramai2 ke IPI. Like the old times, masa kami busy keluar masuk office sir asking for exam tips last semester. Ramai jua tu. So, rombongan seramai 6 urang bejalan menuju ke IPI dgn langkah yang maju ke dapan *of course lah kan. haha* . Dtg ke tangga IPI, cari lift. Nada =s. Haha. Malas. Sampai dapan pintunya, he got visitor so kami waited outside sambil beibun2. Ada g tu one of APB lecturer ketawa very loud then kami ketawakan. Cali the way he laughed atu. Ok, siap urg jumpa ia, our turn g. Sir H surprised kali to see bunch of people instead of one. Teehee~ Kami atu kira kan melawat ofis nya baru lah jua.. Luas and has nice view. Tapi bagi malas, jauh terpencil. Nasib jua kami ambil that course last year. hahax! Sakai2 di dalam for abt 15mins below, then we have to go sal got class. I couldnt believe my ear when sir cakap "Makin berisi jua kau. Chubby".. I was like =0 I dont take it seriously plg. Aku nda pcaya ja ia cakap catu. And then ia teased lagi "jogging tia ni karang". Asteeee~ baik jua ia my lecturer, lau indaaaa.. ku *censored*. hahaha. nada deh.

Lecture at 12pm got quiz which i totally have forgotten about it. Huhu. Tapi alhamdulillah, inda jua out hantap lah my answer for the first few parts. Ganya nda tau cana ia mark. Anyway, something happened during lecture and it was definitely shocking, to my lecturer plg tu. hehee.. one of my mates is having a seizure and i guess ia nda tau apa kan di buat. Likewise, aku nda tau jua though have been in that situation last sem. I wanted to help tapi antah ah.. dont have the courage. huhu. My friend, HY, she is very helpful in any kind of situation. Ia bangun and tried to lend a hand, do anything she could do. Somehow aku rasa guilty for just sitting there and watched. Cam rasa useless ada jua. Lecture was immediately paused and resumed after half an hour later. Sir D nmpk worried plg tp ntah ah.. this person was put on a strecther and ia kana bawa ke spital. Mudahan ia okay. Amin~

Final story.. as told by Dr A, we went to his office right after 2pm. He told us to meet him in his office to get the prize for solving a Treasure Hunt question. Kami awal kli masa datang ah salnya ia nada dalan his room. We waited for half an hour when kami nearly kan give up on waiting for him to return from lunch, ada tia masuk dari main door with a big yellow plastic bag from SL. Ia bawa atu lagi mcm santa bawa present. Dengan selambanya ia ckp, "I go shopping", after kmi ckp we've been waiting for him. Haha. Pandai jua make jokes sir ani. Ia bg kami splastik luan, followed by saying, "Finish it before puasa". Ahaha. melabang jua ku ketawa tu. p seb bek sopan masih tho melabang. hahaha. C Y bukan nama sebenar sayang kan sir atu sal ia bg chocs and kropoks. hahaha.

umm.. bnrnya kan.....aku kalat mata dah wah.So aku mohon diri dulu from this incomplete post. Hahaha. chiao

change and changes

2009-08-07T01:41:00.006+08:00

Some says things do change. But as for me, people themselves did those changes. They changes things and make changes to them. haha. The same thing there. Talking about changes, current issue yg we all know sdg happening in Brunei is the thickening haze. Not long ago, riuh pasal the H1N1. So these are examples of changes. Lazy to elaborate more regarding those matter, i'll just skipped to what i want to blog about.

Friends. We knew them first as strangers. After that, being friends. Some stays and some goes. Why? Pasal changes. Apakan, changes saja aku ah. Anyway, aku rindu M lately. Its not that im not over him. Not like that. I am still not able to keep away those beautiful memories and fold it into my memory box. Im not the kind of person who forgets that kind of stuff easily *but other thing, yes ;p* And there's a saying; "Yang terindah hanyalah sementara". It is true. Benda yang indah, don't usually last long. They tend to leave when you are already attached to it. Be it stuffs, friends, families or relations.

I didnt ask for a fragile and sensitive heart. Infact, ive been trying to "train" my heart to be as hard as diamond so that it wont be easily scratched or cut.. tapi who am i to persoalkan or pertikaikan kejadian yg dijadikanNya.. Instead, i have to be grateful to own a perfect jasad. All i have to do is make changes, ignore those things yg bagi salah hati..

Yesterday afternoon, or shall i say yesterday evening. I saw K, who used to be someone in my heart and i believe i was someone in his too. We've lost contact for like a year or two. Im sure that "lost contact" is not the right word to use cause we cudve been contacting each other if both people have the willing to do so. Tapi kalau sorang ja yg berusaha and the other inda, it wont happen jua. Yatah kan lagi, I didnt know what to do cause i saw him first. Patut kah aku lay my eyes on him til ia liat aku or should i just ignore him? As expected, i just walked past him and pretended i didnt see him before he could see me watching him. **I hate that word! PRETENDING! Urgh..** But ive tried to make it up by waiting for his eyes to meet mine as i walk passed his place for the second time. The defying truth. Ia liat then looked away tarus. Ouch! I felt like.. "apakannn..what did i do to deserve that cold look?"... Ive expected that plg tp.. yeah.. truth hurts. Hmmm.. ure appearance doesnt seem to change a lot but inside.. it really does! So to that particular person, i get ur point =)

Later after that, tejumpa lagi old classmate a.k.a old crush. Another surprise. Ato ya. His look rasanya maintain and his height as well.. hihi. kalau inda, i wouldnt recognise that it was him. H, from skulah mata2 dulu. Im not sure whether ia kelala kan aku or nda, tapi for sure ia balas balik my "kenal-look" atu.. Malas ku nagur since aku busy with my nephew.

My mind is tired already.. so as my body. Guess its time for me to sign off.

wasted

2009-07-29T02:27:00.003+08:00

im bored and yes, i am wasted. uh btw, apa kan wasted ani? hahaha. As for me, i like to use "wasted" word when labelling myself as malas, losing control of myself and gaining WEIGHT of being eating too much! My friend's once said, "This is a holiday syndrome". Yeah, bet she is right. I sleep late, eat too much, lazy-ing around, watch too much TV, so on and so forth. Just now, ive finished watching 2 movies namely Transformers and I'm Not Single. Oh btw, what i mean by Transformers is not The Revenge of The Fallen Transformers. Its the first movie which i thought i have seen it and eventually i have not. Teehee~ no wonder aku langsung inda ingat the part about the cube and the grandfather. Only certain part cause maybe i wasnt sitting still while watching with my cousin dulu.

ok.. time to go. my mood to write, have just disappeared!

Sinful acT

2009-07-24T21:49:00.006+08:00

23rd July 2009. i snapped in the middle of the day. It was for one stupid reason tho. The most stupidest of all was that i did it to my deary mother. huuuu. god, bedusa ku eh.
I was just an inch away from the edge when she came to me to say something which was more to advices and i eventually snapped. huh.
For the record, i did not voluntarily wake up in the morning. I was pushed to rise early. That was an ok, tho im a bit annoyed. To make things worst, i was in the grumpy mode these days. so yeah.. I irritates easily and i snapped!.

Before anyone of you jump into conclusion that i was trying to sound innocent, Dont be as i dont even know how to make myself look good. i am no lawyer who can defends herself or someone else with great skill. i just speak the truth, whatever i know and whatever i feel right, although for some, it is wrong.

now i feel utterly bad coz i know i have scarred her with my words. Yes, words are more sharper than a blade. This is the time where "sorry" is much needed but as always, being the hardest thing to say. ego? maybe. ashame? could be. sigh.

As for today, unplanned and unexpected, here i am at Lambak. Staying for 2 nights at my cousin's. I just got here early this morning. Way too early. Adi picked me up from home right after he finished his work which was nearly 1am. Haha. Mama was worried cause her daughter is going out and it was already late. But alhamdulillah, selamat ku udah smpai ke lambak.

Last activities before new semester starts, im in the process of composing a song. To be exact, two songs. Huhu. Out of the blue bnr and it is my cousin's idea! But its just an attempt. Menjadi, menjadi. Inda, kiss it goodbye~ ^^)v

nicey nice~ heart

2009-07-03T22:40:00.008+08:00

What do you think? The quote above is so true and fits my definition for an action which i always called as "left in silence".

These are very inspiring as i am a type of person who always seeks for "guide" on how to describe all those things that had happened to me in words, whether in my life, relationship, friendship and so on.. i tend to use wrong "descriptions" that most of the time people percieved wrongly.. huhu. im old yet still vewy childish in "transmitting message".. nahhh.. kuar tia topic Management .. nyeheheh ^^)>

So... now i have i lost my point. I was away for hours just now. Abandoning my "unfinish entry " behind. Lemme recap jap.. I was talking about this web, unique yet inspiring. Full of quotes and very positive i shall say.. Well, most of it lah. Then i was talking about myself.. then i stopped. Haha.. *knocky knock!!* Im being pointless~

I'll just talk about what im doing, awake at 3.12AM in the morning. This is how i usually spent my holiday.. tidur ahir~ wasted. I am! About an hour ago, i just ate nasi katok.. gila.. that's really insane but i still do it.. this is like my 3rd time.. im so putting up myself at the highest fats-and-cholestrol level. apakanns. so unhealthy me.. geeshh.

Im still at my cousin's, now listening to her playing the guitar.. recording her own-composed song.. such a talented girl ^^
I better get off this chair and lift up my ponggong, head straight to the bed. nighty night~

Berbagai2 tipu helah dirancang buat menyambut birthday Sii Cousin Nani ;p

2009-06-30T04:06:00.020+08:00

27th June 2009
Woke up early in the morning, and went to the vet at 8am coz our kittens got sick.. ciann.. Ramai urg but alhamdulillah, we didnt have to wait for hours as check-up was done quite swiftly.

As we all know, every 27th June our dearest cousin will grow older. Family 4261 will never forget to send her greetings. However this year, she only received greeting from me *family 4261 side* when midnight strucked *as i was sleeping in the same room with her* if i didnt, grenti awkward tu..
Actually aku pun nda tau big sis had planned something for her. But i just play along wv the game.. muehehehe.

*Birthday girl with Elix, as she was constantly meow-ing. Takut kali or ia ada urge kan ke jamban. Hahaha. So, this lady came to the rescue by holding her paw..*

Balik rumah, readied for another event; that was fishing. Dad chosen to fish in Kilanas. Hmm.. too bad.. fish nor udang galah wouldnt eat our bait. sob sob.. p nda apa.. was just trying our luck. We had our brunch there. Still, no greetings were being conveyed to the birthday girl ;p *shhhh. acting in progress*

Enjoying Nasi Katok while waiting for our baits to be eaten. Nyum nyummmm..

An hour had gone by, we moved to Tutong without any catches. Not far from penapar if m not mistaken. A man came who lived nearby came and joined us. Big sis get to catch Baung and udang galah. Alhamdulillah..

About 4pm, moved to the final location which was Tutong town.. Aing nda mengana, so none was caught. Still, no greetings. As if everbody had forgotten about it ;p

The oringinal plan was after fishing, big sis kan bawa piknik di Pantai Tungku sambil mengail. But then, since our time was too packed already, we postponed it to tomorrow. And here, the final drama of the day. We brought the birthday girl to Le Stadium for dine-in.

Ocean Salmon dot dot dot for big sis.. couldnt remember xp

Grilled Chicken Mushrom for me~ *i think thats the name*

Ice Lemon Tea and Road Runner Chicken kali ne namanya, for birthday girl =)

After finishing our meal, we waited for the dessert: Ice Cream with brownies or vice versa. We're a bit full actually, tapi sudah order.. makan sja lah kann...
Oh yess.. forgot to mention, while eating we purposely on webcam with family di rumah..
calling2 with urg di "sebarang" kampung.

Nani was sibuk2 beceta with urg di rumah via webcam when Le Stadium staffs brought the cake from her behind. Kami nyanyi ramai2 the birthday song, including urg2 di rumah. hehehe
Liat tu muanya ah.. she was giving a look to big sis, pelakun utama ah..

She seemed to be surprised that she dropped "black" tears before blowing off the candle.. Hehehe.

yayyyy~ Its a successss. Ahax! Jahat ehss.. Sian.... her eyeliner was ruined by her tears. Had to clean it before blowing the candle. Dessert dtg at the same time. Batah2 sesi touch up, cair eskem. hahaha. but it still yummmmeyh~

Finishing the ice cream, we dashed off to Soon Lee kan bali chicken wings for picnic.. 5 minutes to 10pm we arrived there, ada plg ayam.. tapi wing part nadai.. bali other stuffs sja like mee and sauces.

Before home, wew singgah again t Le Stadium to take our order: Ice cream with brownies for urg di rumah. I messaged to KFM since kami dalam keta.. Uncle Izat and Boboi were on duty. They did read the msg and it completed the night. Ahaha. I guess another tears was spilled that time. gotcha =p
I didnt notice that she cried earlier until i saw this picture =p

Sesampai saja di rumah, wahhh.. riuh riuh.. ceta ceta ceta.. more to "behind the scene" punya story.. SOMEHOW, i did few mistakes in the end. I accidentally left those ice creams outside the refrigerator when I was supposed to put it in the freezer. Then masa kan bawa one of the ice cream to the freezer, i dropped it. The container pacah. Fortunately ice creamnya inda teplanting kuar. alhamdulillah..
Trust me, being the one who ruin the fun is so not COOL!

having another urge to post something...

2009-06-26T16:26:00.004+08:00

...yet i dont know how and where to start. I sort of having mixed feelings right now. There are so many things i'd like to put down in this post 0_o)>

Absolute Boyfriend, is a manga that i have laid my eyes on these days. It makes me stay up til late night.. Makes me wondering what will happen in the next chapters when im not reading it. Absolute Boyfriend tells a story about a 16 year-old girl whose love been rejected for many times. She is cute, innocent and adorable actually. Its just she didnt know that her bestfriend were the one who make it impossible for her to be accepted by those guys who she's been confessed at. She spread bad things about her so yeah.. backstabbing is the right word to describe her. The unique part of this manga is where she have purchased a figure, that is a boyfriend, from Krono Heaven Company. I dont know how it exists and i wont bother to figure it out. Haha. So the story begins with her living under the same roof with the new lover. Siukkk cetanya.. romantic comedy and full of drama. bagi sasak ada jua.. huuuuu. enough about it lah. Luckily im on holiday that i have nothing to worry about. hehehe.

Lunch time, i heard that MJ passed away. It staggers me much. Im a bit disappointed coz i didnt get to meet him in person. It was like my wish when i was a kid. I'd like to talk to him and.. at some point i want to hug him. Ada that one time i saw him on TV, I feels like wanting to be there, standing infront of him. He also made me feel close to him. In what way, i have no idea what has gotten into me. Is that an obsession? I dont know and i dont care. I just like him that much. Now he's gone and i grieve a bit. RIP now.

I'll Fall for Your Knife has become my listening pleasure now. Thanks to M for introducing it to me. Macam ada something in this song that makes me.. cool and in a peace-state-of-mind or whatever you call it. Sigh. Im losing my words now.

Trials and Errors

2009-06-23T23:46:00.008+08:00

Been thinking about this "phrase" to be my new blog title and finally, here it is. Trials and Errors. Trials for that i have been through and Errors for that i have made for the past 21 year i've lived. I realised that i have never work on something. I'd rather wait for it to comes then i'll do it.. Is that a good thing? I dont have the answer to that question to be honest.

Lack of updates? Do you wonder why? (I'll just assume you do. Hehe)
As been mentioned in my last post, I am staying over at my cousin's crib in Lambak. And i'm not sure how many nights i have been away from home. I've lost count as i dont bother much to do so. Nyehehee. Anyway, i'm missing home. My bed, my stuffs and most of all, I miss my parents though ive seen them few hours ago. So much of homie-person I shall say.

Updates on myself, Ive been beaching for 3-4 times in this week. Not for picnic reason though, its more likely for umm.. "business-leisure" activities. LOL. What i mean is activities that can make money, at the same time can be used to learn something new AND just to fill these free times of mine. What ive been doing at the beach actually, was a hardwork. Looking for Kunau by pulling the gurit on wet sands is one heavy work for a lady. Nyahahaha. Not really as for me. Still can handle ;p It feels good when I get to collect many of them. In spite of that, it makes my whole body ache. Real aches im telling you. That was for the first time and I dont have to use lots of energy anymore after doing it for few times =p

Anyhuu, today Ive tried out something new like looking for Tiram on the rock. It was fun indeed. BUT. There is a BUT. To those who really cares about being clean, better think twice. This might not be yours to try. Haha. Apakan.. Umm.. my hands, my palms' hurt.. i have small cuts all over them. Kinda padih but not that critical. Belulang have developed 'comfortably'. So much of being an active person *i see repetition here~* Kasar udah nak tangan ku ani.. hahaha.

Oh yes, I would love to share few pictures regarding today's sunset. But dont expect to see the sun as it was hiding behind a thick cloud. Nevertheless, the colour it gives was astonishing beautiful as you can see below. Its weally nicee.. One of many excellent creations made by Allah SWT

Just for ONE day, I have to unfold memories of mine

2009-06-19T01:02:00.011+08:00

It was not a sin to reminisce all memories that have been written at some pages of my life, right?

At least I think so. On the 18th June, a cousin of mine just got back from Kelantan for a holiday in his hometown. Too bad he can only stay for few days in Brunei. We will send him off to Miri Airport this saturday. Thats so uncool. In spite of that, we had fun today. Family 538; mom's sister and family 4261; which are us, went for a picnic. It was supposed to be a "Kunau-hunting activity" but since he is in Brunei, Nani and I turned it out to be a picnic activity instead ^^. As always, organising a picnic is no easy thing unless you have some experiences, which we dont really have xp. It was kind a mess if mothers did not put their hands in this matter. Without them, there is no way today's event be a success. Heee thanks ngah, thanks ma bah =p.

To begin, first of all, the Man-of-the-Week a.k.a Yushak had to be fetched from Limbang Immigration and Nani got her hand on that. She bought stuffs right after got the Man-of-the-Week safe and sound to Brunei. LOL. Meanwhile me at home busy helping mom in the kitchen and started packing some clothes at the same time. Im sleeping over at Nani's crib later on. Its like a tradition during no school hours =p.

Yushak and nephews

2.30pm, time to load stuffs in the car and zoomed we go. Dropped by at 538 's crib first then convoyed to the beach. Alhamdulillah, weather was fine and just nice. I was the last person to arrive at the sand and to my surprised, they were 3 unexpected relatives: usu, amit and bro standing tough. Hahaha. They were on their way back to Limbang where they stopped to meet us at the beach beforehand. We light up the fire, began to salai the chicken and sausages. Nani cooked fried mee. Nice job gurl ;) nanti g cooked for us aytess.. hahaha. After had a quick "afternoon" lunch, I, followed by others jumped into the sea and you could imagine what would happened. I could not recall when was my last "bath in the sea" since we moved to the suburb. Back in Jerudong, it was like we could be at the beach at almost everyday cause our house was just on the opposite. Missing those times.

Nani wv Eboy

We stayed till sunset, till there was no single ray came from the sun except stars and light from ships sailing on the ocean. Quite surprising when we took a glance at the watch that it was showing 8pm already. Wahahaha.. I like toh.. This one memory of us unfolded in just a click. We used to camp out on the beach during the night just to watch and wait for fathers to catch some fishes by merambat. We, kids, played with the sand. Built a big crocodile out of the sand. Salai fishes right away, fresh from the sea. It was fun. Fun and harmony activities between two families. Today, it just come back to us, in a newer version of course. hoho. Enough said, fun and excitement is all i feel for today.

Kunau and gurit

Hmm... despite those, i admit that i also digged out some of my latest memories with someone. When i saw those stars glittering in the dark sky, I could not help myself from thinking of this person. He was my latest memory so yeah, its kinda fresh. Takes time to fold it nicely. Deep down in me, I did wish that he could stand besides me and watch these beautiful scenery together. Mingle with my family and best cousin. Having good time and so much more things to do with them. Guess I have to accept reality and stop day-dreaming for a while, until I graduates. hee ^^)v

hmmm.. I was over these things few hours ago but now its back in my head. Ok lah.. I need to stop thinking and writing now cause at this point, I know I will started to talk craps. hehe.

To my bitter-sweet memories, no worries. I accept truths, fates and reality but to forget you right away is just not my expertise. In times, sure I will totally over you. Its just you, not these m.e.m.o.r.i.e.s =)